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Jul 2015
The dark is a terribly scary thing
It keeps me awake at night, the sounds, hallucinations...
I cant stand the dark, it breaks me down and plays to my fears
There  IS  someone there, I  KNOW  it!

Open water imposes and intimidates
I fear boats and the ocean with its great expanse
The inability to swim is partly my problem, but even being able to wouldnt help me
I cant, I cant, I cant, I cant....I cant

There is nothing quite as loud as silence
Piercing, sharp and precise. It rings my ears, driving me mad
Night time gets me, the dark, the silence... It becomes too much
Make it stop, make it stop, make it stop!

One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
We all want space, time to ourselves but I just cant
I crave social interaction and go into a panic state, the dark, silence, alone... Do you see the reason I dont sleep
Please stay with me...dont go...dont leave me alone....

Never being good enough, for yourself or others
As a human I fear rejection and disappointing other, becoming a failure
An overwhelming sense of guilt fills me when I cant live up to myself or others expectations
You still love me though...right? Im not a failure aye?

All of that means nothing

My greatest fear...is losing you...
The nightmares have plagued me in every which way
Sleepless nights spent in worry, the fact I know you hurt yourself sometimes never helps... I fear life without you, fear for how itll be
*Stop...please...dont go...Im sorry
Im so insecure, so weak, so afraid...
Xiao - SparKticas
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Xiao - SparKticas  22/M/New Zealand
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