i. He says he'll embrace me through the night
And so I allow him to
Then I feel his arms tangle around me
Strangling me gently with his thoughts
About neverending things I'd rather not ponder on.

ii. He tells me to get up from my bed
Leads me to a mirror
I look at my own reflection
And instead of seeing myself, I gaze upon broken shards of glass
A distorted image, I am disgusted; I can't look anymore.

iii. He hands me a blade
Touches my wrists softly, guiding me:
"Let it run along your skin.
Let the blood dance."
He said it would make me forget for a while.

iv. He whispered sweet nothings
Which turned out to be haunting words once he disappeared
And I sat up in the cold, hours on end
Waiting for nothing: eyes tired but never closing
Because I felt so alone
And there was nobody to phone.

v. And even as the stars were shining
The night grew on longer
Coldness so bitter, darkness beyond jet black
Because he ordered me to stay there
And I did so, accordingly.
I no longer felt like fighting.

vi. Then, I remembered:
I closed my eyes, pulled my blanket over me
Shut my mind off and stopped thinking, stopped breathing
Counted a few numbers
And opened my eyes to the sun rising
To find that he was finally gone.