well ****
I ****** up
I thought too much again
and realized some ****
I'd rather leave unsaid
and writing it down
won't help me forget
but I'd rather have proof
that I'm human
because I feel so alien

I don't know who the **** I am
because I've spent my life
pretending to be someone
for someone else
and someone else
for someone else
and someone else
for someone else
and I guess my mind grew bored
and it got up and walked away
and I was too busy to notice
or call out her name

it's pointless though
(and ****** up I know)
because in the midst of all this faking
I forgot it anyway