I didn't wear makeup hoping I would see you today
we end up in the same spot and I feel a rush go through
my spine
and in
my stomach

I drove today
after all
that happened
after the accident

I moved forward today
and I will take another
step
tomorrow
towards
being
ok
again

I looked for your car today
typically peeking
out

they're still afraid to say
your name
around
me
always
with
a stutter
or
hesitation

they called you zombie today
I'm afraid
of the Xanax
because I'm not around
anymore
to
yell
at
you
because
I
loved
wait
love
love love love love
you

I don't want a zombie
I don't want to hear you're a zombie
I want what's mine back
and that's you
please
let that be
you

it's funny
I say
"we have to be ok apart
before we can be ok together."
but
it seems
that
we
were both
better off
when we were



together.