I hold nothing against you. These spines are in my chest clutched like a sacred heart grenade with fingers too close to let the blood through. Driven in desperation cyclone of nonsense and the neurotic marred by nothing and marred by all and the red dash trenches with no man's land slowly decreasing but too many futile-over -the-tops for far away victory. Fruitless as the wavering charge one step forward two hundred back Stalingrad psychosis. Shell-shock guilt and the stark reality of one's own mind and the prisons it builds. Peace is a forgotten word not even whispered in dreams. Freedom drowned in the mud.