it was always a competition
between you and myself
to see who could win the most
be most liked
and have the most.

but then one day
i realized you never mattered
and it was just a competition
between me and myself.
because half of me
hated who i was
and the other half
simply wanted to be happy.

you were never in the equation
and it took too long for me to see
that it was never about you
and always about me.