the wind blows up my hair it's making the breeze goes up to my neck. if i shall ever close my eyes the snowflakes will try too hard to keep it closed forever
darling, january will start soon are you hiding? do you care at all? are you creeping behind the wooden door and watch as the world burns down? because i do. i care about the year that passes. the seconds, the minutes, the hours we spent together just 24 hours ago what happened?
i cried you lied we fought i did this, right? the cats are chasing for fresh meat.
i screamed like a possessed child like a drunk man without a wife like the sun without its light but that was a year ago
monday, january
i used to see you every morning on this day, you would walk around the hallways and made fun of our science teacher.
you would see me and rolled your eyes or maybe just stared for billions of minutes until you had to look away because, well, my eyes had taken over your heart more than her words did.
but that was last year.
i cringe every time i hear your dark and beautiful and flawless name
and i hide every time i smell your cigarettes and wine perfume or ketchup and cigarettes and beer perfume.
this year
you wont call me yours i wont call you mine we wont be staring again we wont be visible again we wont dare to hate we wont be in love we wont care for each other we will be nothing.
this year, starting. i see your face in the crowd and ask, "do i know him? does he still know me?" you glance.
i made a mistake today. accidentally called your name out loud, and you stared at me again.