Being transgender is like this: Everyday of your life, you have always wanted a dog. For as long as you can remember-- even if you don't know to what extent-- you have wanted one.
You asked your parents, Santa, the easter bunny, even the tooth fairy. Then one day you get a dead cat for your birthday. You say "This isn't a dog," But "You get what you get and don't get upset" So you carry around and care for the dead carcass.
All sorts of people look at you, unable to understand what you are doing. So then one day you decide to try to make it look a bit nicer. You wash it a bit, comb what little fur it has left, cover the decrepit limbs.
But then you realize the futility in doing this all the time, because you are still carrying around a dead animal. So you continue to carry it around because you have to, no matter how horrible it may be.
Although you are carrying around a dead and rotting cat, you aren't a ******* cat owner;