I can't remember when I was first happy
I don't remember when my wrists were clean
I wish I was happy
I wish I was clean
Sadness envelopes me like a velvety wave
Please help, oh darling, I can't live like this anymore
I can't smile
I can't laugh
I can't live without doubt
Maybe if I just die tonight
Everyone would be happy
And no one would have to bother with me.