The pain seeps out in flashes of insanity I do not doubt you love me Though I will always wonder why In my shattered self-image In my innate ability to be unseen Was born an adolescent desire A desperate need A yen to be quenched of doubt To be noticed To be seen Both within and without In that longing to be alive To be sure that I am a tangible being In that way I push limits I test boundaries like a child Taxing the last nerve of an exhausted parent Pushing hard until something breaks Proving I matter enough Or proving I can bend reality Until I matter not To anyone For surely there is a reason I remain Unseen Unheard Invisible Intangible Irrelevant And Unnoticed So I push when I'm hurt Because you promised you won't leave And I believe you You said I meant everything I always wanted to mean to someone And I believe you You said you'd do anything and everything it takes to make me smile And I believe you The pain seeps out in flashes of insanity I test boundaries like a child Not because I doubt you Because I need to always believe
32315 My weakness is not a reflection of your strength. I do not doubt you. I only doubt myself.