Rachael.
I heard you were moving
My procrastination caught up to me.
A text was all I could bear.
A shot at something long gone or already losing

4 hours
I Lit up like a homeless man with a winning scratch off
Who said we couldn't pretend?
For a couple weeks or so...

15 hours
It takes a split second to bounce a signal off a satellite and back to earth
But 15 hours for me to lose you.
You packed that moving van and put me in your pocket.
Two men and a truck.
What about two hearts and a chance?
That chance was beyond fragile
Must not have seen the label
"Handle with care"

Distance
You promised a post card.
Instead I got an unanswered question
A perpetual reminder of what could have been

Boundaries.
I spoke of a future. For both of us. Separate, Unable to live for an idea.
I wanted us both to live.
I called it "boundaries"

Pain.
I heard it in your voice
I hope you heard the struggle in mine
I didn't bite the hand that fed me.
I destroyed it.

Silence

Haunting.
I must have written you 20 letters
Even if I hadn't thrown them all away
Wouldn't have done me any good
Never got your address anyway.
Or a post card.