You are sick because you are afraid.
Afraid of things you love (and him)
Afraid to get your heart broken (which might not)
Afraid to try out new (though you want to)
Afraid to come out of your comfort zone (why not?)
Afraid to let it be and afraid to not let it be (don't. over-think.)
Afraid of what you desire (so much)
Afraid of everything that scares you and should not. (you know it should not)
Afraid of not being good enough and scared of realizing that's okay... (it is!)
Afraid of... everything and (and)
Afraid of nothing.