In my journey I have not decided If walking in blinding light is better than wandering in the blackest night. I give darkness such negitve continuity, no fault of my own, societal programming, when I am feeling lost. And Yet I can't even move to feel my way in the brightest of light that stings and attempts to eat at my eye lids through the crevices of my fingers. So Which is the better? To wander in the dark associated with loneliness, helplessness, cover, or protection Or Feeling around in the light associated with bravery, certainity, vulnerably, or exposure? Somehow I seem to have slipped onto a ship without anyone at the helm and I, Neutral I neither give a here nor there on which to decide Only More so which one bares more of a case on better returns.