And your words burned through my soul faster than a forest fire burning through trees trying to escape the buckets of water being dumped on it because I knew you meant them. I knew when you said you wouldn't ever be able to forgive me you meant it and as that realization fell through every inch of my heart I could feel it slowly being ripped up just like how you used to tear handfuls of grass out of that meadow where we used to sit when you were sad only this time you couldn't just get up and pretend you hadn't completely ripped the life out of something so fragile because you had to watch my face as the words sunk in and the worst part is you didn't even ******* care as you saw my eyes go from vibrant blue to as dark as an ocean before a storm because you had known for so ******* long that you didn't really love me and you just needed a reason to be able to say it without looking like the villain, without looking like the one who dropped that single lit cigarette burning that beautiful shade of red and orange as it caught on one leaf that was just a little too dry, you didn't want to look like the one doing that to me by dropping those words on the one piece of me no one else had ever been able to see and ******* you knew exactly what to say to absolutely ******* destroy me in just a few words and as they tumbled from your beautiful bubble gum pink lips I swear you smirked a little as my much less beautiful horribly pale lips turned into a frown and a gasp escaped them because those words left me absolutely speechless. I would've rather you just held the lit cigarette right against my skin over and over like you used to do in that forest right beside the meadow after you pulled out clumps of grass leaving them lay lifelessly waiting for one to finally light because that would've been so much more bearable and understandable than those three words that you let slip out ever so carelessly. C.a.l