False glimmering smiles are always eager to
Make you believe
They are on your side.
Swift.
Eager.
Dying for
You to bend for them to feed.
You took my heart and set it on a dusty shelf
Next to our childhood.
I wanted to believe in you.
There’s always a fight and when you know
Nothing comes freely, you’re deluded when you think
That acceptance comes easy.
So when the day came that you thought it was your place
To tell me who I am because
I had kissed too many bottles I
Realized your game.  You
Think I’m weak, but that’s okay.

How dare you make me feel
Like my claim to my identity is something
Trivial and is yours to take.
I am not defined by your expectations
Of the man you think I should be
Or of the men you think I should love.
Am I supposed to introduce you to every
Guy I ****?

You see, you’re wrong if
You think that I’m ashamed of myself.
What I am ashamed of is the family that
Claims they will always be there for you
Unconditionally
Are only there when it’s convenient for them
Or only they like what you’re saying.

I am ashamed that you made me feel like
I was at home when
All you really cared about was building ammunition
To burn down the trust that I misplaced.
How dare you continue to lie to my face.
How dare you.