Sanity drifting, rising from within,
Grey clouds and fog enter my soul,
Sorrow and self hatred seeping in,
Why now? my life bares no hole,

Hiding the pain from little eyes,
I feel so cruel sometimes to them,
Reach deep within to smile happy lies,
Won't let them see my blue stem,

Touching the brim of my consious state,
Am I losing it? would i be aware?
Sadness suffocates my happy fate,
Head blank, mind full, just sit and stare,

Needed help so asked for a saviour,
my body, my being against a brick wall,
Scaring me now this mental behavior,
But immediate help not promised at all,

One day, one pill, the capsule of hope,
Is my life and my marbles packed so small inside,
Yet gradually notice my head starts to cope,
My chirpy old self wants no more to hide,

And now that its passed my life i am living,
Ecstatic to the point of my once darkest hour,
How could i be blind to gifts i've been given,
Finally and for good i feel my hearts power,

Now when the sun shines it brightens my day,
Want to share this feeling it's such a relief,
i won't let this cruel world get it's own way,
My cares and worries i'll send them a reef,

So much to look forward to, my life now has meaning,
Unable to express, I feel i'm reborn,
Can't fully express the hell I have been in,
My once sorry life felt shattered and torn,

The grey days have passed, i'm jumping for joy,
If the day is grey now it's the sky not my mind,
I have sun in my heart, I know it sounds coy,
As my cloudy view at long last is not blind.

© Susan Michelle Baker