It's 3:43 AM. I can't close my eyes. My hearts beating too loud. My stomach is twisting. I don't want to be anyone's trouble. Will I ever be something? Could I be your honey? Even though, I have no money? I need to work. I'll buy lotto tickets. Do I have to strip? Or do ****? What does it take? My first payment is two-hundred and thirty-six dollars twenty-three cents. It increases after two years. I don't have a job yet- I graduate this May- if I don't die. If I don't die, I will have to pay this November. Our anniversary is in November. Better find a government job. Make that cash! I don't want a sugar daddy with a white mustache. She said, "Everyone has loans." Yeah, but I'm no one. What does it take to get paid loads loads loads of cash? I didn't care for money. Capitalism grants me no choice but to Wonder what it's like at the bottom of the ocean? No structure- it's dark. I'll become fish food, in some rich man's aquarium.