its different the 2nd time around
after you have been heartbroken
and you finally recover
then he comes back
and this time he is the one that is hurting
when you finally put yourself back together
he comes back asking for more
this time he is different
but you lost your love you had for him the first time..if you even loved him
if anything you should love him this time around because he's finally doing what you wanted... kinda
he is better than he was
but there is still something missing
why do you continue this?
because its the easier route
easier to be loved than to love
thats how its always been
and the fact that the one who broke your heart somewhat wants you again
well why not only have only one foot in?
you dont know if you actually still like him or not, or if you ever truly did
but now, you hit the realization that he's not what you want and wont ever be
all you are is a helping hand for him
it's a strange relationship
considering you change your mind so much
and you cant tell between reality and dreams
you dream of the perfect relationship
and the day the one comes to you
because wont it feel different than it does now?
was it just an infatuation with him the first time?
or the fact that he was new?
you never did stay occupied for that long before moving on
you always push aside the nice ones because you feel you'll never love them
you grow bored of them to easily
yet it is the easier choice
will it be different when the one comes along?
maybe this is just you making yourself feel this way
maybe your feelings are true
but how would you know?
You are looking for something you just don't know what exactly
sometimes you find it in him, sometimes you find it in others
or are you just so low that you can't stay involved in one relationship without thinking of others?
maybe its not them, its you.
you find it difficult yet at the same time easy
you are polar opposites and maybe that's why you look at more than one person
you just dont want to regret anything
or make mistakes
because failure is your biggest fear
and you are a perfectionist
which adds to everything else
so what now