I just want you to know:
There are days                where I forget to miss you
              and there are days           when I think my cuts and burns are finally healing
        But then             there are days             when the feeling returns

And there are days                                         where I see imagery of you again

Of you               behind the bar
           Pulling on a Camel Light

Of you                       standing outside my window
The sun           dancing coldly           on your skin
Of you looking at me
Just                          
                               ­       looking at me

And it was like         you saw                  straight through it all

You said                  it was going to be okay
                     And I've been repeating that phrase                  ever since
Because       no one      will     ever         quite          ignite         such great hope inside my chest
The way you could
But I'm just trying to       help       them
              The way you helped me
The way          I should have                  helped you
I miss you       more      and        more
                                Ever since I let myself think of you again
And I miss you         less      and       less
                          When I tell myself               you're just a dream
   But I guess      I just want to say
That it       kills me             everyday
                  Even now
To know that    I    did    not    save    you
       And I'm just so ******* sorry
I'm so sorry that I let you slip away
                          that i let you die
But now            you're long gone
So I guess it's too late
          And I    hate    myself for it too


                                 Just know that I miss you


              *I miss you so much