you know for ages I thought I was finally getting over you my mind was filled with other thoughts but at 4:36 I woke up this morning and realised how stupid id been
of course I still miss you and it wasn't the empty space next to me that reminded me. it was the knots in my hair I got from turning in my sleep so much because even in my dreams you aren't mine
it's hearing a text on my phone and my breath catching in my throat because I'm hoping it's you
I'm not sure if I'm angry at you. how could I be? whenever someone asks about you I never know what to say. ...an ex-almost?
that's what kills me the most. we could have been... something. and the only way I can somehow fall asleep at night without saying goodnight to you is to remember we are under the same galaxy, you're made of bones just like him, and him, and her.
you're a part of me you're in my veins and I've done all I can to get you out but it just won't work. it won't work. please make it stop. I guess some nights when we're both filled with ***** we'll finally have the same thing running through our veins
I like to tell people I don't have a heart, what are feelings anyway? but you, you remind me that I have one because I can feel it breaking
I remember that you always had a pen in your hand, tapping away god, that was annoying. but now I can't hold a pen without replicating your actions just to feel less lonely do you remember how I good I am at lying? you told me that once.
it scares me that you've forgotten me because all I remember is you you you you but it scares me even more that one day I might forget you because then I won't have something to remind me how to feel
maybe one day 10 years from now you'll feel your heart sink because the red wine in your glass isn't dark enough to match my red lipstick or you'll remember me when that girl makes you coffee and puts too much milk and the brown doesn't resemble my eyes anymore
maybe one day you'll realise what could have been but it will be too late I'll stop running to you because I got burned everytime and I have tears running down my face now and you aren't here to help me ******* why aren't you here?
I never believed in fate, that the universe somehow controlled who we met but I guess I have to thank the universe for at least letting you stop by.
- I'm okay now. you're out of my system, my blood no longer has your poison I don't wake up at 4:36 anymore