L - Hello Poetry

L Mar 2016

i'm not on drugs but i'd probably be happier if i was ******

what does it mean to matter
what does it mean to be needed
why does everyone know the answers
why don't i
what does it feel like to belong
what does it feel like to fit in
why can't i understand
why am i here

nothing matters
and i've never felt needed
my questions go ignored
and so do i
i don't belong
i am a piece of the wrong puzzle
things are confusing
and i'm leaving today

this is such **** and i'm really sorry

L Feb 2016

808 and counting

you took my bad life and made it good
something in your hands stopped mine from shaking
something in your smile stopped me from breaking
and everything was better.

writing about happy things is really hard but i really love him and i've never been happier

Feb 2016

s

a boy

I have never let myself get close to someone
I always run before I can get attached
Because leaving hurts
and getting left hurts
so I avoid it
but I met this boy
he makes me kind of crazy
he has curly brown hair and a cute smile
last night he came over and we talked for two hours
two o' clock am
we were just talking
I dont know why I love talking to people at night..
but I honestly do
He says he may be in love with another girl
and I said okay.
because I am always left to pick up the pieces
he will come back eventually
it just hurts
because I am falling for a boy
who is not falling for me.

I have never fallen in love

#love #heartbreak #hard

L Feb 2016

*******

what can i do to be unseen
unseen but still heard
how many days do i have to stay silent
the sound is deafening
and i am defeated.

this is about a boy who doesn't know what no means, and i don't know how to get over it.

Jan 2016

Danica

Battlefield

You liked grey
and I liked green.
We clashed in more ways than one.

We were soldiers.
Your eyes were bullets.
My heart was a loaded gun.

Day and night,
relentless battles,
drenched in our cold sweat.

Bruised and wounded,
the blood I’ve shed
tastes bitter with regret.

When you shot through my chest,
I’ll be honest,
the pain was hard to ignore.
I didn’t even need to tell you
that love was the war.

love was always the war

-

#love #war #battlefield

L Jan 2016

vulnerability means something different now

nothing is the same with the lights on
your face can't hide anymore
and there are earthquakes in your hands

vulnerability means something different now
you're exposed and sometimes it feels right
sometimes it feels like nothing

nothing feels like the day you said hello
and goodbye
all at once

nothing feels like sleeping together
together
but so alone

leave the lights on
nothing feels like the shadows after you left
nothing feels like you

and vulnerability means something different now
and i see your face every time i catch a stranger's eye
and i wonder if i turned the lights on

would they see my face
would they see my past
would i feel something again

nothing is the same with the lights on
and everything feels like you
everything feels like you

uiefjdknmls;skjfbkvjnldkc;mkdjwefnvdsc **** me please

L Jan 2016

cinderella

you get inebriated and scream at your walls to love you back
smashing bottle after bottle on the face in the mirror yelling "*******" and meaning "love me"
telling your pastor you're a ***** whose only price is someone who will listen
you'll take your clothes off for anyone who asks but hide from anything that makes you feel real
don't show them your crying eyes
don't tell them what you think about at night
just let them use you and it will all be okay
"it will all be okay"--
the words bounce around in your head like a pushpin in a balloon because what if it's never okay
stop--just keep going
just keep lying
smile, don’t frown, it will all be okay
maybe this time will make it okay
maybe this time will be different
maybe this one won't leave more holes in you than he can fill
maybe it will be okay
every man you meet becomes the next needle on your compass and you always end up lost
their eyes are your looking glass and their gaze captures everything you want to be
but crooked mirrors from crooked souls warp your view
and you wonder why your perception is skewed
distorting the things that they’ll never love thinking maybe it will be okay
maybe they'll stay
you're vulnerable on purpose
they know it and you don't care
you let them have you
all of you
soon there is nothing left
you drink to find yourself again
you get inebriated and scream at your walls to love you back.

different but honest