I have alway's been backwards
before I am now always.

A day at work
without any
rock and roll
just sends my mind into spasms
it drifts off away out into intergalactic space
I feel my heart race
then I have to make up words of my own
then my surrealism kicks in
so a new adventure begins
dreams from the black hole
which is my mind
and my life
people greet me

Hi P@ul  !

hope you've had a bad day!

Please DO tell me so
why are dreams bad and fk with my mind

They tell me things
that are just not there
not in my world of reality
mostly bring me down, never up
tell me things that are just lies
sometimes take close to a *******
almost there, hit me with a nail in my face
blood flowing, that morphes, into the ex
FK these dreams and the ex
never getting me one of them again
she has mest with my mind.

Some days
i walk around
with
MASHMELLOW
for my head

Learnt today
if you **** in a lift
it's wrong on all leavels.

But man such a gas!

On your toes
nose bleed
comfort feed
tishyou in the bin
balance again
on my toes
**** that ******* hurts
just whipe my feet
less pain no gain
try again
hard skin
dipped in morphine
**** no more balance
wear are my toes
dose alice know
Balance
is not a thing to talk about
for balance just is.

There I was
tip toeing around
and my balance
just felt on edge.

At that my ego
did fall off
and I nearly toppled off
ending just another blood spot.

Listen if to night
I can say anything at all
listen to the band of words
sitting here feeling not quite right
*** means nothing
the adventure of orgasam
pales in my day
like a wet fish on the flour
from me moves away towards the door
where my mind can shut it out
but is all that really me
why can I not tell
why can I not feel it?

It's not getting good feeling old
un wanted un sexed
feeling kind of violent
but have nothing to fight about
like your all shutting me out
taking from my ribbon of words
that bring me joy
so **** my band of words
go and mess with your own head
and leave mine be!

If you want to be a banker
Be more humane.

Artois is where art is
and I love bank'y's
for there that day
art was
and today is not at all
and to me that ment some thing.

Went to a bar
well you might say
if you was dog
the girls well
RUFF!
so I ask Ruffuse what
he thought
WRUFF!

Born without them
came in a box
into the 50's
parents scared to death
reading the box lid
this is parcel two of three
batteries not included
so remember that
when poping under the Christmas tree
triple AAA's
needed to work
we hope you enjoy your product
register it today
post the card provided
but warning
batteries not included
P.S. you make yourself
then pop the batteries in
what will you call it
make that up on your own
pop the batteries in and turn it on
into the 60's
then I had become
all thinking as one


Love your Son P@ul.

Be on my side
be on your side
be what you are maybe
be yourself
be a super star
be better by you than you really are
be fare
be always true
be something new
and in your dreams
be you.


P@ul.

people tell me to be like this
what does it even mean
I am just me
yes all the hormones of a male
But I ask
What
What is me
you tell men do not cry
fruck I do
and all the time
for as a man I feel the sorrow of you
Big Time.

Oh what a

beautiful girl you are

are you the one for me?


the way you blink

the way you think

it makes me think

but most of all,

of loving you,

are you the

one for me.

Your caring eyes

soft and gentle thighs

surrounding me like a moth

around a flame.



Falling in love again but what am I to do if I can’t help it.

JUST SO LIKE BEER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­!!!!!!!!!

Is this what Bees look for
and stick it hexagonal pots
alway's thought
those bees were example's
told by blushing parents
and all pregnant girls
for it takes two
the flower and you
is this why women cross their leg's
and by the way that does not help
especially in stocking leg's
makes it almost alway's.

Be gra'te full when you die
and be one in your own head.

:-) :-) :-) :-) :-)
Paul@

Being sixty-two
don't call me old
done more living than you
so I think
I am abler than you
to know my own mind.

Yes some days
I forget names
but is that really important
in this day age and time
I still know
my thoughts are my own.

Only sometimes
dribble down my chin
and that is mostly
when I'm ******
or ******
**** just thought.

This year
I will turn
******* Sixty Three
book my wheelchair
I feel like I'm getting old.

Just got soul
even though
i rock and roll
at
first it messed within my head
but now I think
it like hitting gold.

I fall down always
Being what 'I am
tears last for years
but I am the man i am
one day
I will find
the woman I missed for years
just to find
that my only years
is me and so easy to see
I
am me just this man.

I fall down always
Being what 'I am
tears last for years
but I am the man i am
one day
I will find
the woman I missed for years
just to find
that my only years
is me and so easy to see
I
am me just this man.

My garden hurts me
as walk among the roses
they grab at my flesh
to rip off my bones
but soon is halloween
and from the garden the roses will run
never to return till the sun shines bright
the weak always wins.

Beyond
fell
down
over
there
cutting
both
of
his
arms

Where?
Beyo­nd
over
there
thats
where
the
place
is

over there beyond.

God I try to be
but still have not found
what trying to be
maybe I will not within this world
and that gives me so pain.

natural
thickly
one two three
step behind
four inches above
six inches of common man
balancing on two legs
eight fingers, two opposing thumbs
on two hands
one head
two halves of one's brain
always counting on himself
looking for a mate?

People ask me
do you write things down?
nope, when you see me on here
I come to write
what you get
is my mind that night
I write here and now.

Do you find
them days
when you
don’t know who you are
am I black or white
or do I process more colours
than that
look in a mirror *****
**** I am male
that took me by surprise
so no excuses
just has to be said

breath in through you nose
breath out
relax
study what is this all about
I am not black
nor white
just something in-between
god how will I ever have *******
being me
or post a picture thats not real
no that’s not me
thats like selling
a tyre
that’s grip is made of putty
from your action
your going to **** some one
and that’s not me

well you sure ant crying
so feel no shame
wipe those tears of your face
and go on just be you

OK seams like a plan.

Have you ever had?

what was today for me, was one of those days
my Black Sabbath.

IT started out right, then went black
no matter what i did!

It was just not right
and so I worked it from day till night.

do                you
think? that a black hole
is just like that black dress
which you wear
the one that
seems to bend
light right into you
and makes me feel
like a ****** child
even at my age!

Do we do that
if not that is not right
thinking about this gave my mind blister.