For those who follow me
I write this in the day

bizzar

I hear you say
if you are surreal
then write this in a dream
then we will know
that all you say is just the dreams
you had last night

No one hears me like you do

something got to give
my elastic mind
might just snap
it happened to a friend
as she said
I've just reach breaking point

She Snapped!

But in my mind
I am all that I will ever be
in the universe I am small
but part of something else
which makes me smile.

Farther
where did you go
seams as my days go bye
I need you more
So
farther
why
did
you
leave
me so
I
have
to
fight
the
world
we
loved
together
So
seams so unfair to me that I can not hug and talk to you know more.

Spending the day
on the roof of my shed
telling myself
I would be
better of dead
fading away in the
afternoon sun
no cloud or moisture
we have got
our lights on
but our eyes shut
spending the day.

There's water on the ground
fear gips me
I am about drown and cry
feel the fear in my mind
its not like this on good day
fear ******* me inside
fear in my mind
then I wake up
for that ******* alarm clock goes off
then I know a new day blue
no clouds in the sky
thank god I am up
moving about to do my stuff
drink my first coffee cup
get out there
and learn about your society
smile and make people feel good.

Some day's
My Father's words
Come back to me.


Son you car'nt have that
for that is for the masses
and dose not grow on trees
So boy go out and play.

Th@t's wh@t I am
head full of dre@m's
I do not stay @nywhere long
I he@r your words
But I @m the Tr@velling M@n.

Come on buy a time share in my head
there's no other place to be
who's knows where it will take yah!
come on dream with me
pay your money and lets go
you know it makes sense
and all those placeses you've never or i have yet been,
yet to be visited
buy that time in my dreams of mine
come on buy a time share in my head
my limited look at time
that all fits into my head
so just sign on the dotted line

X..........................................................­

Come on buy a time share in my head.

Some day's
I feel I have just fallen out of the sky
Don't ask me why
but nothing seams right
maybe I bounce to much
or concussion in my head
never landed on my feet
like the earth
I here now
so lets play ball
and have a feast
on these words
find myself behind this computer
a fast delight
twin turbos burn
just have to find my head now
and let my fingers burn
updating right now
but getting old
get
ready
don't
be shy
let me know

I just do it the way i do it
and I have fallen up see.

Dr's told me today
My brain had a bit died
And
              you
                                      ­    know it did
Now my left leg dose the   r  u  m  ba
And
               left
                 hand can no longer
Pick the boggies from my    n  o  se
But dose all this
Mean
I
am
less
of a person

No my thoughts I let lose
Forgive me for this
Don't you know I am just ill.

The first day I met yah
I was looking into the sky
Ossey's eyes where wide open when he wrote this
people tell me I need love but how wrong they can be
when all it is to be left alone
for I was born without you all
I just like seeing all your words inside my head
some nights you can see it written all over my face
I'd  like them more expressive
but no that's just me
and not for you to worry about
but if you want to
I will see how they will fit into my head now
people say
your poems
they do not scan
well that's just me
the man I am
the man that can
and if you think
that is not right
then my surreal head
is wasted

and I can't do much for you man or princess.

well
i am
walking
in the rain
and thats
all right

just
another
friday
night
i
walk
though windows
and fall
though
doors

no
one
to talk
to
but
that
is
all
right

i
am
dress
up
in
my
birthday
suit
­but thats
all right

yes
just another
friday
night.

When I was young,
I was so indecisive!

But now I am old,
I am really not so sure!

Now I am a man
well you might call me layed back
easy going, soft spoken
but man if I clench my teeth
I am a man you wish you did not know
P@ul means a small brown worror
so your better off trying to make me smile
Don't make me mad
don't bring out my devil
that dewls inside
of what you think
is your heaven
and donn't
make them
put me back
into room 77.

Like TV news stories
of a little girl
have the will to write to google
for a job
and the CEO having the ***** to reply
things like this
makes my heart bleed from my eyes
not blood but tears
salt stains on my shirt
some days my shirt gets soaked
my eyes go red
and my brother calls me a nancy

Lots of things make me feel like this
thanks for listening
Nancy P@ul.

I know this nurse
called Olivia
hope
on my dying day
I get one of those
happy to push the pipes back
when I pulled them out
and when
compi mentis
feed me by mouth
and tell me
what old fool I am
for the nurses
are princesses.



Just for you Livi.


With regards P@ul.

Foreign country
all I want to do is pray
smell the jose stick
and incense in the air
fall down on my knees
in front what I think the altar
pray give GOD my pray's
my GOD blessed me
then go about
my life
smelling kind of funny all day
and I think I bruised a knee

I wanted to write a POEM
in just 10 Word!





J  O  B     D  O  N  E,            S  O    T  H  E  R  E.

For how can I tell of my
yellow brick road
if to me that road is blue
and how can I tell to you
the fields of gold
today are purple
or is this all in my head
for I should be awake not dreaming
this morning on waking up
I looked out my window
the one grey cloud I did see
and today that cloud followed me
just to make me colour blind
is it you or just me or my mind
now 2 have become 3
is it me that knows colours
or my mind
today I am having problems with colours.

Your safe and warm
got a brake from the storm
and visiting time seams like the past
and you just reched the part
where your losing  spirit leave you heart fast
and this giant of darkness surrounds you
it a long way to dawn
and your shivering to hide
so you wait for the sun
just to known a new day is began
but today you feel of glass
sitting on a shelf that you know will fall down
waitting to drop.

Something in side of me
will not let me be
be what I really am
something that whispers inside my head
will not let me be.

You've got to hold on to something
that you believe
so it can make you feel alright.

You've got to hold on to your dreams
and things in between
making you feel alright.

You've got to hold on to everything.

Listen if to night
I can say anything at all
listen to the band of words
sitting here feeling not quite right
*** means nothing
the adventure of orgasam
pales in my day
like a wet fish on the flour
from me moves away towards the door
where my mind can shut it out
but is all that really me
why can I not tell
why can I not feel it?

It's not getting good feeling old
un wanted un sexed
feeling kind of violent
but have nothing to fight about
like your all shutting me out
taking from my ribbon of words
that bring me joy
so **** my band of words
go and mess with your own head
and leave mine be!

Blink,
Blink
did
sleep
only to wake in the heart of me
and i feel it here
in my bones
now the sky overhead
all the birds
making a sounds

Beautiful as the day is long
memories of life
and always a believer
of all things right
but if you blink
then that is gone.

In there right mind
who
invented dental floss
I am sure if coming home drunk
would saw teeth right off
thinking about it must have been a dentist
******* my smile is mine.

Don't do that again
get lost with sniffing my hair
might have
this morning picked up your shampoo
had my eyes closed

You know yours is the cheap stuff
anti dandruff shampoo £2.99 from Lidel

now I am like my dad
while in the shower eyes close just pick up a bottle
mum left the Cif there
Dad smelt of lemons for a week.

Tick Tock
around the clock
hands keep passing me by
I just care for you
and there's nothing any one can do.

But the flowers
still bloom in winter
under the limited sun
and that is there universe.