So many reminders

So many temptations

How could I do this?!

How dare I blow it all again?!

If it weren't for you

I'd be in shreds

Unfortunately

I still want to

Darkness creeps over me,

i cant control it,

it comsumes me,

what do i do,

where do i run to,

mylegs are far to weak,

and i have no one,

i did this to myself,

none else is to blame,

the cutting,

the drugs,

i went to far,

i pushed things to far,

i'm left with nothing,

an no one,

except the darkness,

that creeps over me.

so I couldn't be bothered dealing with anyone else.

yet

I like others dealing with me
and proving them how wrong they are.

when I walk
I at all times

walk

in a clockWISE manner

to the right.

because it is my right

to live my life exactly how I want it.

walk on only the white lines of the zebra

peeling my mandarines
and not letting you peel them

letting you in

but not letting you out.

you are mine.
and I am yours.

so

<3<3<3   <3   <3   <3   <3<3<3  



save my heart

and bare my soul.

To dream once more

To see your face agian so calm and full of life

But what is it to dream? Is it happy memories that flow like the water on the shore?

No, to dream is to think of you, though doing so comes with longing and strife

To hold your hand and embrace you so tight

As darkness fills the sky ,my heart fills with hope to see again my never to be wife

Its been so long since our eyes have met but it seems the only time I can see is at night

So I say to you my love, what ever should I do?

As if reality its self can not escape me from this sleeping dove

Its seems that my life is only satisfied when im with you

For now when the sun sleeps and the stars arise, then only then I can be with you my love