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OnjuliThePoet Sep 2014
Breath
I told myself as i stared at the scars on my wrist

Breath
I told my self as i swallowed the poison in my mouth

Breath
I told myself as i stared at the broken fool

Breath
I told myself as i hide my sadness, anger,and depression away

Breath
I would tell myself remebring the blood and watching it drip

Breath
I would tell myself when the world around me became black in pain

Breath
I would tell myself as i looked at a dying fool

Breath
I would tell myself putting on my mask and placing it one last time on the bleeding broken and dying shelf known as myself
OnjuliThePoet Sep 2014
I'm not me
I'm a vision of someone i tried to be

I'm not me
I'm a innocent girl who wants to be free

I'm not me
I'm a broken part of society left out by those who became dead

I am not me
I'm a girl who struggles to be me
I struggle for society to see me differently because

*I'M NOT ME
OnjuliThePoet Sep 2014
Bleeding
I hide the scars on my wrist all because I'm a outcast in life

Breathing
I hide the pain in my heart with a smile which holds a broken heart

Seeing
I watch the uselessness i call my life fade away with dreams that died the same way

Feeling
I hold what it is in as fear controls me

Hoping
I am free when im alone but the pain comes back on my soul

Screaming
I beg for the names and torture to stop as my heart suddenly stops

Dying
I devour the poison and my scars run free

Sleeping
I lie in my broken dreams as all of you are crying, but you shouldn't because im finally happy now
OnjuliThePoet Sep 2014
You say you like me
but i don't want to give in

you say you love me
but were only fourteen you cant possibly

you say im your everything
but how long will i be your everything until someone else replaces me

you say you'll never lie to me
but its hard to trust when all your life that promise was made

you say you'll never hurt me
but how long before you get tired of me

you say you need me
but is that what you honestly think

you say all these things to me
but i don't want to be the foolish girl who gets hurt because she believed
i don't want to be the one suffering
and you be the one running care free because you lied to me
so for now its all good and i wont give in
i like you but you have to show me its OK for me to let my walls down and trust what you say to me
made this cuz i have a boyfriend and he says all these lovely things but then again i don't want to believe them because i don't want to be the idiot who ends up hurting
When I asked you to fix me,
You told me I wasn't broken.
But, let this soak in.
I just wanted to know,
If i was still a pretty enough picture to be worth, agonizing over a puzzle.
Even when it's a struggle.
And you have to nuzzle each piece into place,
Kissing the pieces bent out of shape,
Searching for pieces gone missing,
But you can't make a raisin back into a grape.
Yes, I Remember your middle name
And who says we can't celebrate failure?
Don't be sad, we tried, we tried.
When you write your story in the sand it washes away with the tide.
It isn't our fault.
We may have cut ourselves open, But we didn't ask for the salt in our
wounds
Can I still say "we"?
I guess you're kind of done with me.
I don't blame you, Puzzles are frustrating.
they're a tease.
Please, tell me I haven't lost the most important piece.
Tell me I haven't lost
you.

© copyrighted Nicole Ann Osborn
OnjuliThePoet Jul 2014
No one seems to notice the scares on my wrist
or
the pain i feel in side
I've tried to fake a smile but its become to hard  
the people i know who care are forever there they believe im happy when im not

so i fake my smile to make them believe that i am
i don't want them to worry about me so i will fill there hearts with joy and laughter

but as long as im here the scares are my enemy's
the one's who torment me, the one's who truly ****
so i will continue to heal until one day I've had enough
but right now it seems that it never will be

deep down inside i feel like i died
and nobody hears my corps screaming in pain
so i will leave and pretend again please help me im slowly dying in side but you wont help so i will leave

I'll go to another world were i will be understood
i will be excepted and loved you told me you didn't care and now i see
what you meant you all hated me

laughed and called me names well im done
i took my stand and you pushed me back down
i tried to stand my ground but  you buried me alive
and now I've suffocated and its due to the harm and hatred
so i say farewell to you and so long for you are the fool that has let me down

now im gone I've left and i see you miss me
well you have apologized to late and now you know my pain
are you as sorry as i am for all of those rude and messed up names
well i am but now i cant feel your pain you had your chance
but as you watched from the side lines i cried and died and you witnessed my death*

so  now i see you did care im a survivor and thats all i will ever be for as long as i live and once i die you will care
OnjuliThePoet Jul 2014
Your like Death
leaving something behind making me sick
Your like Death
killing me with your sickening soul
Your like Death
you turn evil so quickly because of me  
Your like Death
Always following me gosh just let me be
Your like Death
Your a fear boiling inside me a friend standing beside me
Your Like Death
slowly breaking me to were i cant breath
Your like Death
a patient silent ****** that has a sick obsession
let me go alright im done
let me be i don't need you
let me live follow some one else
*Your like Death
always and forever haunting me
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