Got straight A's and mommy still ain't proud
Yelling still comes from her lips
Into the ears of her daughter
With her too wide hips
Which mommy tries to alter
And her poor daughter just falters
She's a good girl now but mommy doesn't care
Because mommy isn't fair
Mommy has an angel who's untouchable
And mommy blaming her daughter is unstoppable
His troubles become hers
For she lives mostly to serve
Her screams and cries go unheard
He gets candy for being bad
While she gets scolded for being sad
Attempting to teach right and wrong
But mommy puts her efforts down
And her own daughter struggles to be strong
But mommy is blind
And her daughter utterly confined
Over the years she lost her patience
And is waiting to say good riddance
Mommy pushes away
While the daughter hopes to fix things and stay
Mommy makes her daughter cry
And she doesn't understand why
Mommy didn't give her daughter a daddy
Mommy gets angry and calls her daughter fatty
Mommy has a saint
And daughter tries to voice her complaints
Mommy and aunty gave daughter a child
That child is much too wild
No boundaries or rules apply
And daughter sits by
Hoping she no longer must comply
Hoping soon she can wave goodbye.

Half the time
The mirror smiles at me
And the other half
Breaks because of me
Torn between the complexities of me

Imperfection,
Why should such a cruel word exist?

Beautiful,
Why should a word so magnificent be spoken so seldomly?

Why should I,
As a woman compare and contrast?


Why should it matter what size certain body parts are or are not?

Is the heart, the soul, not all you need?

Sweet sweet hummingbird

Who suckles sweet nectar

Please stop pecking at my head.

This love



It's so much more


Than you'll ever understand


He and I



We're more than teenagers in love




Together we are one completed soul




Together



We are happy



What kind of person





Would tear real love apart?

I knocked at a door
Labeled "God"
And heard a simple response
"I'm not who your looking for"
I blinked and the door changed
It smelled of wonderful pine
And had your name carved in it
I knocked three times
And you told me to come in
And I knew,
I knew God wanted us together
I knew that he'd lead me to you
When I walked in
My life was complete,
My future laid before me,
My future with you.

The water swayed slowly
As I walked by
Each step I took
Another glorious flashback

You kissed me against that wall
When nobody was coming

Sat with me there and cheered me up

You and I celebrated there
And there too

You threw rocks
And I joined in

We sat on that bench
And watched the sun rise

You took my play doh hearts
And made me promise
To never leave them for
Strangers again
Because we were each others
And every bit of my heart
It was and still is yours

You gave me yours once
And I still hold it up to
That picture of us

We kissed beneath there
And wished we had our own room

We dreamed there of our future
Our future together

That place was ours

I remember the first time
You told me you loved me
Was on our way there
And it broke down
Every wall
I spent building
And I told you I loved you too
With fear and hope in my heart

I remember so many things about us

And I remember so many things we did
Or we said when we were there

It was our sanctuary
Together there
We were free

I love that place more than I ever did

Not because it's beauty
Or its energy

But because we created something there.

Your

           Arms

Are

         A

Synonym

                For

Home.

I always wish
That I knew
That the last day
Was the last day.

So I could've hugged you
Just a little tighter

Kissed you a little harder

Said I loved you a little more

And held on just a little longer.

I pray
I cry
I hold onto hope
That something
Has changed
Something was wrong
Just so you can stay
And our plans
Can follow through
You use to wake up
And call me
Your paragon of a wife
Your packing up now
And I don't want you
To ever pack up us
Because I'm afraid of being buried.

Sometimes I close my eyes
And watch our memories
I have my hands on your chest
Smiling with a heart
That was never more content
Than in that instance
And you laugh at me
And you just lean in to kiss me
I watch that girl, me
Know without a doubt
That your her forever
Her lover
Her mate
Her future husband
And as I watch them
I realize how willing
I am to fight for that back
And as long as you never give up
I promise I won't either
I watch them laughing
Crying, making love,
Napping and eating
And suddenly I see
His eyes
Looking at her
And all his love
And all of hers
All the shared energies
Flows freely and peacefully between
Oh how wonderful it is
To almost feel it again.

Love has consumed me
Far too long
For me to ever stop
To ever lose faith
Because in my darkest days
All I had was hope
For a future with
The one I love
Who would love me
As wildly and crazily
From day one to the very last
With every bit of his heart.

I learned from my mother
And my youngest aunt
That I didn't want to be
A teenage mother
I learned from another aunt
That love is always a battle
And I have to decide if its worth the fight
(Which I believe it is)
I learned from my other aunt
That anger only locks you up
And once in it's hard to get out
I learned from my step mother that
Endurance goes so far
I learned from my grandmother
That putting *****
In your orange juice
Is not a good start to any day
I learned from my cousin
That care is in our hearts
And if you lack empathy
You may leave your soul behind
I learned from my great aunt
That kindness and helping people
Is good for the soul
I learned from my great uncle
That just because you have a lot of things
Doesn't mean you have everything
Lastly, I learned from my father
That love grows in all the little things,
All the small words or actions
And that without those
We cannot grow love.

This time around,
I didn't get a goodbye kiss
Or that long meaningful stare

This time I got
Dirt in my eyes

I've been harmed
My eyes (the gateway to the soul)

Oh how they burn
For my mind misses
Looking at you

Feeling you close
And you looking at me
The way I look at you

With love and admiration

With a sense of desire

Now I am left

With memories that I claw
To hold onto

And just as before
I throw out all other knowledge

To hold onto more of the days
That I spent in your comforting arms

This time it's more unfair than ever

And I beg for you to somehow

Be able to just stay

My love reaches

Such a grand intensity
And I can never let go
I open my eyes despite the pain

Wiping away the tears

And I reach out to you now

Hoping maybe

You'll respond

With more than simplicity

But show me you love me
Tell me how you saw me all those days

All that time we made love

Make me smile again

Don't go without giving me
Something to hold onto

Some faith
Some hope

Don't go without
Telling me you love me

Because I want to replay that instance
Everyday until we can be reunited.

I love
The way in which
You preferred me
As me,
Natural
Even if
It means being a mess
How you still
Called me beautiful
Even when I laid bare
I loved the way you
Always saw more in me
And I wish I knew
Exactly how you saw me
Because sweetie
I think you're pretty amazing too
I always have
And no one else will ever
Compare.

I miss you
Every day
And every night
I write your
Name on my hand
And hope somehow
You can be here
Holding me tight
Kissing my forehead
I love you now
And forever on baby.

I miss you

I whispered into
My empty room
Hoping it'd find you

My heart churned heavily
Imagining us together
Bathing in the glory
Of our indescribable love


Wishing you could
Just run
And find me
So we can be saved
Together
Drenched in blessed water

Oh how my mind dreams

We make a beautiful couple sweetie
And despite everything
We'd make a breathtaking child

Raised in His love
And ours

We are two souls
Tethered together

And we will *always
Find a way
To come back
To each other

I have faith
And so
I whisper
I love you future husband

Knowing your heart
Has gladly accepted the name.

God gave you some beautiful lips


(That we're meant for mine)