It's been 14 years now since I first fell in love with you

And each year

No matter how much or little we talk

I'll still love you

I'll always love you

It just will never be the same as it was at the very start.

I think about reaching out all the time

But I know I would care too much

And you wouldn't care at all

I know if I did I would hurt

So each day I hold myself back

Because I have nothing and everything to say

And I know it's best to leave things the way they are.

If time heals all wounds then what are these gaping holes in my soul

There are missing parts of me I'll never get back and that nothing can ever fill

If time heals

Then why do I still feel so broken

So flooded by the pain

Why do I still feel angry

Still feel sad

If time heals

Why won't it heal me?

If you were to die tomorrow

I would mourn the hardest

And if you don't die until 50 years go by

I'll still mourn you the hardest

I still dream about having to choose


I always run from those deviously encapturing eyes.

Passion was a friend I once knew

God, a best friend

And I miss her all the time.

I miss the breathlessness

The quivering and excitement she brought

It's all gone now.

You are the light of my life
My morning sun and my evening moon
I want to reach you and stay by your side
Too bad you’re just “not in the mood”
Too bad “you have better things to do”
Because the only thing I do
is think of you

I dream
of you thinking about me too