Nadia Hasan: Favorites

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Charles Barnett

There was a story I read to you
from the internet about a man
who paid his dead girlfriend's phone bill
for months after her untimely demise
just to hear the sound of her voice.

You asked me if I'd do that if I were in his place and you were gone.

You're gone now.
And I'm still calling.

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Loneliness

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Presence

Loneliness

real
loneliness
is not
necessarily
limited
to when
you are
alone

not really a poem but I guess it's something?!

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Alcoholics

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Atlas

Alcoholics

"I like you better
When you are drunk"
If you understood
Why I drink
Would you feel
The same way.

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

I will, don't worry

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Rachel Mena

I will, don't worry

And then it hit me
I was still waiting
I was still waiting for an apology

I was waiting for a small
Sign of regret
Of repentance
Of realization
That you messed up.

It wasn’t until this occurred to me
That I realized this was what
was holding me back

this was what was
keeping me
from moving on
from growing up
and growing past you

But I do not need your apology
I do not need a sign from you
Of regret
Of guilt
I need you gone
I need you out
I need you to leave my mind
And to stop entering through the smallest spaces in my thoughts

When I can get past this
When I can leave you behind
Then I will grow
I will lead
Not only myself
But others
To happiness

When I stop waiting for your apology
I can become the bigger person

And I will.

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

love exists in chaos

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

ASB

love exists in chaos

you are delightfully
uncomplicated --
rational, funny,
no-nonsense, no drama,
and with you everything is
simple
and black-and-white.
but me, I'm used
to my life in shades of grey
and intrications
interest me --
what is life without a little
chaos?
oh, if only I could love you --
but all I've ever truly loved
is her confusion
and how delightfully
complicated
that made things.

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

"that one day in march that gives you hope"

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Mars

"that one day in march that gives you hope"

Its a cold evening and I'm walking up the street
I can't remember
what I thought
but now
I'm not thinking, I'm knowing
that the sky is that perfect shade of blue
and i'm walking up the street

in every other possible reality this must have happened
I feel perfect and happy and whole
for the first time in a long time
too long a time

the sky was blue-gray like a sunrise
even though its night time
and then i felt like nothing was ending and everything was starting
and i felt so big

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Intoxicated

Mar 2014 Nadia Hasan

Natalie Przybyla

Intoxicated

You answered just a little too fast.
It surprised me.
I haven't seen you in about a year,
And I am realizing I've missed you.
It surprised me.
The last time I saw you,
And the time before that,
You were intoxicated.
It surprised me.
I haven't seen you in about a year,
And I am realizing what you are to me.
It surprised me.
You are a dress without hems or seams.
I hardly know you but you are beautiful.
You are the bullet in the rotating cylinder of the gun to my head.
You dig through my skull and explode my amygdala.
And force me to love you.
You are the jam in the barrel as I pull the trigger.
I fell to the ground in realization:
You both killed me and saved me.
It surprised me.

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