That stiff manor
And the lifeless grin was enough to
Freeze me.
Love is not supposed to be pulling teeth
To be noticed.
You taught me that mediocre exists.
The love before you
Taught me passion is not just
Drunk tears at 3 am and
Deceiving words.
I went from burning hot to freezing cold.
I don’t know what normal is and
I don’t know if I ever will.
I learned to set my own temperature.
I am in control of my own degree of love.
To find a happy medium would be ideal
But I have come to the conclusion I chase after extremes.
Whether it is extremely boring, or extremely exhilarating
It gives me life.
looking back and analyzing what I thought was wasted time was just in turn a valuable time to learn lessons that will define what i finally am realizing is a true love.