The ever smiling boy never frowned no matter what happened.
He just wanted to be a happy person
He was always there for others but others are never there for him.
But still he never stopped smiling
No matter how people hurt him backstab him
He still forgave and smiled.
But deep down in his heart
He's crying.
His soul slowly fading away
Deep down
He wants to die.
He wants to end everything
Yet.
He has no purpose to live in this world anymore
He cries himself to sleep every night
But in the morning he puts on smile again and lives on with a smile
He always wonders is it worth it to smile everyday even though no one appreciates.  
That one last spark of happiness is all that drives him everyday.
I wonder what will happen when that spark goes off.

Memories is one of the most soul killing things in this world.
Everytime I think of it,it reminds me of the fun and awesome memories that we had and also the dreadful ones.  
But.  
You all shown your true colours.  
Sly
Cunning
Ruthless
Heartless
And I thought we were in this together.
You all ditched me in the end.
Let me to face judgement
Now.
I changed.
I'm not the old person that you used to know
I realised the truth.
I realised how wrong I was.
What you all see is the tip of the iceberg.
In the end, I can't undo the things that we did
I wished I realised earlier.
Deep in my heart.
I still miss you all.

Memories is one of the most cruel things in this world.

Always wondered how it will feel
When the blade touches the very first surface of my skin
The sense of confusion whether to cut or not to cut
But now, I guess it was a tool of relieve of all this pain around me  
All the fake words and people
All the False promises that were made
It gave a sense of numbness towards all of it.
What now?

Do you want to know why I use a knife? Guns are too quick. You can’t savor all the… little emotions. In… you see, in their last moments, people show you who they really are. So in a way, I know your friends better than you ever did. Would you like to know which of them were cowards?

You used to be my best friend.
You used to be the person I trusted.
Now.
We are back to just how we were.
Strangers.
You told my secrets.
You rip my life apart
You rain destruction on what I protect the most.
Is this what you wanted all these while
I sacrificed so much for you.
Endured all the pain
Stood by your side when everyone deserted you.
I'm shattered.  
I'm giving up.
Because I only exist when you need me.