I missed you so much
Like Starsky without Hutch,
Like the sky without stars
Highways without cars,
My days were dull
Like a matador without his bull,
It felt chilly like cold apple pies
Without the twinkle of your eyes
To make it warm and bright,
Out of sight;
Is the last
Thing I want
You to be,
If you could only see;
How daunt;
I was and fast
The days did not go;
Without you I wouldn't know,
What to do with myself,
Place me high up on a shelf
Cause I never feel alive
Until you arrive…
© okpoet

Of all the nightmares
That ever were,
Of all the dreams
That ever will be,
There is a time
Where the past unloads
And the future withholds
The present that is now,
And because it is a gift
You are existent; you are real
Questions will be no more
And answers will prevail,
The moments leading
And the minutes fleeting,
Shall leave not a void
But memories forever,
Imprinted not on sand
Of shores to be eroded;
But on granite and marble
Never to be washed away;
Not by the waters;
Not by the winds,
Only of our own accord,
So in our acknowledgement
This is now or never;
Not maybe and if ever,
We shall seize and
We shall conquer,
Our enemies will cease and
Our enemies will hunker,
In fear of our retaliation
In awe of our determination,
Let us hence in this proceed
We have commenced and taken heed;
Of our destinies; of our fate
Let's not care for amenities; we will not be late...
© okpoet

I woke up this morning  
Dressed in black
Still in mourning
Not looking back
I closed the door
My sleeve tore
Got in my car
The drive was not far
I was crying sad
Someone cut me off
And I got real mad
But only for a minute cough
Syrup in hand
Going to robotrip land
Played an upbeat song
To raise my heart's beat  
Which was barely there
Faint it wouldn't be long
Before it would deplete
My strength; blurring the street
My eyes were leaking
All over the steering wheel
I could lose control seeking
To end it all toe-heel toe heel
The familiar shifting autonomous
Feeling quite anonymous
Forgotten by someone I adored
For a moment the gas I floored
Going faster and faster
At least of my life's death I am master
But nearing my destination I slowed down
The music my screams couldn't drown
Any longer, hoarse, patted dry my tears
Put on my mask for the ball of fakers
Maybe for a few hours of grinding gears
I'd forget my sorrows my lost heart breaker...
© okpoet

Precious
Are the things
All the things,
That one does not have
That one cannot have,
That others take for granted
That others have recanted,
Precious
Is she
Whom I cannot love
And cannot love me,
Precious
Is she
Thief of my heart though
Gladly I'd have surrendered,
At least it can be
Pocket warmer
For her hands,
Precious hands
That will not ever
Cannot ever hold me,
Precious
Is the time
The fleeting time
Away from her
Away from me,
Precious is she
Precious she'll always be
Precious she'll remain
Precious is this pain...
APAD13 - 031 © okpoet

She brushes
Up against me
But I am not the canvas
She seeks,
The colors I bleed
She cares not for,
If I carefully hang myself
She will not notice
The light that breaks
Upon my surface
Will not illuminate her face,
She has but a few strokes
And those she reserves
For the likes of him,
Priceless art
In the exhibit halls
Of her mind,
Spotlight
She guides
Her thoughts
Through his texture
Retrace every layer
That came before me,
I will sit empty
On this easel forgotten,
Unfinished masterpiece...

APAD16 - 020 © okpoet

I'll leave you
My Bones,
Under all but two
Upturned stones,
I gambled with one bullet
And five empty chambers,
Spun the silver roulette
And click went the hammer,
The thoughts in my head
Melted with the hot lead,
It's all in the red
All that I could have said,
Resting in pieces
My theories, my plans, my thesis,
The unrest in my entrails
Is no longer, like the pins and nails
Behind my eyes
Pointed towards the skies,
At the last flashed my life
Like the sharpest knife,
Seared into my mind
Now all on the wall behind,
If I had chosen the crematory
I would have no story...
© okpoet

Square one
We're back,
Lost track
Full circle,
Like everything
That goes up
Must come down,
This clown
Is going to cry again,
High like a hot air balloon
And just as deflated
The ego that rose
Thorns punctured
Let it all out,
Ground rush
Break in the fall
Cold leaves
And in comes the pain,
I've done it again
Didn't learn now
Nor then,
Committed to the cake...

APAD15 - 005 © okpoet

What is emotion?
It’s but a notion
Of an expression on the inside
Shown to the world outside,
My emotions run deep
But bottled up I can’t keep
Those you stir within me
And for everyone to see;
Because words are not enough
To express them without feeling is tough,
And when the syllables run out
I just want to hold you and tell you all about;
The thoughts I have of us and the future
And that to you may seem cute; sure
But there is only so much I wouldn't do,
Just for a minute without the world; just you
And I’d cherish those few precious moments
In my heart; even if in my mind they’re torments
But if you ask me if I’m getting emotional; simply—
All I can say is; I’m all emotion baby…
© okpoet

I apologize
If my first instinct
When I come upon you
Is to stare; dropped my cookie
And look you up and down
Every inch begging
For an exploratory
Discovery,
That is; until you speak
And I am drawn
To your siren's song
Orchestra from your voice
And the depth of intelligence
Spilling from your mind
I want to swim
By you
In your pool of thoughts
I want to sit
By you
In your Café of ideas
I want to lie
By you
In your bed of beauty,
Letting me gaze upon you
And imagining
All your beautiful bones
Beneath the splendor
Of your smile
Spell you've cast
Upon my eyes;
Slowly rooting
From within my heart...
APAD13 - 082 © okpoet

You tip toe
I'm a steel toe steppin' hard
Gonna crush your piggies
You'll not limp far
I'll get the pickle jar
Preserve this moment
Turn in your rep card
Membership revoked
Just another Joe
Go play with those *******
You're a weak man
Basic for *******
Slave to the substances
Abuse the gifts
Treasure the highs
Get off your lows
Blow smoke
Up hoes
Rake in those pennies,
Get to work
Maybe then
You'll collect
And you'll
Fare well...

APAD16 - 018 © okpoet

I'm still at the bottom
Of this fruit cup
Haven't been stirred
To rise to the top
Because how
Do you go up
When there are no rungs
You care to step on,
Unlike some who think
They'll come up
As if on an escalator
I'm sorry to let you know
It's broken
Now stairs
You must do the work
Yourself,
Step up
Step up
Reach forward
Push, pull
Yourself up
If the sky
Looks like infinity
It's because
Goals are endless
And you're not inside
A measuring cup
As time is only forward
And so you must too
Lurch, drag, march
Step, run, jump
In the same direction,
And let me know
How it goes...
APAD13 - 088 © okpoet

I can't bear
The empty void;
The stillness
Of time
When she looks away,
The trajectory
Of the fiery comets
Of her eyes
No longer colliding
Into my soul,
Like when the music stops
And you're waiting
For the next song,
But she's a mere foot away
And I wonder how
We can reconnect again,
The beams from her lighthouse
Coming around
Spotlight that I crave
That I would give anything for,
The performance of my life
But it's a downhill battle
A runway walk
I cannot keep up any longer,
And when she sees me again
I hear the applause
Of an audience;
The uproar of acceptance...

APAD13 - 149 © okpoet

And it comes
A moment in time,
You realize there is something
Deep hidden within you,
A dark strength
It can consume your soul
Drive you to the brink
Of euphoria
Toxic aphrodisiac,
This moment
It looks you in the eyes
Through those of an enemy,
Life in your hands
It's end; a simple slice; a shot away,
And you do
Without a pause,
Relieve this life of it's cross
See it's spirit escape into nothing,
You savor this feeling
Raw real and empowering,
As you feel the warmth of the blood;
Turn cold around you,
You know what you are;
A force to be reckoned with...
© okpoet

To be clear;
Once you were not real;
But my God had you created from my illusion;
What I desired but never experienced,
My thoughts were for you
Whom I did not know; a ghost;
I knew what I wanted; needed;
And you were there at every turn,
I knew that a kindred heart was beating somewhere;
As pure as my innocence;
That she would be all that was good in the world,
I felt your presence often
Waking me from deep slumber unnerving;
I would daydream of you so serene
And my heart and time would stand still,
With a beauty that shone through the skin from your soul;
And I thought be it heaven or hell;
I would walk the greatest depths;
The endless breadths;
No one would stand in my way;
I would lay waste to all humankind,
But to stand at your side;
And I died each time I awoke
Not finding you there;
And I asked myself how many others
Had tried and failed to seek you out,
But I would not stop;
My heart knew you were close;
Alone waiting for someone;
To rise up from the ashes of your annihilation
Of all those that knew not your worth,
At last I have found you;
I am here to end your wait;
To vindicate my search...
© okpoet

I can't hold you
Like I really want to,
Hold you
Where my hands
Could leave imprints
That will not be easy to forget,
I can't caress you
Like I really want to,
Trace every inch of you
A map that leads
To the stars in your eyes,
I can't love you
Like I really want to,
Ardently consume you
A feverish attempt
To absorb you,
But for a moment
Intensely rage
Against the night sky
Feel your soul
Bubble beneath your skin
Peel like a sunburn,
But I can make do
Just being next to you...

APAD16 - 017 © okpoet

Any price I'd pay
For the sun to shine,
For the flowers to bloom
For a breeze to play with your hair,
All this I wish
To give to you
As if it were mine,
Just to get you out of that gloom,
Just to brighten your eyes
Take away that stare,
Any price I'd pay
For a jester to make you laugh
For a handsome man to love you back,
For the world to do your bidding,
Of all the things
I want for you,
This is only half,
If it were up to me
Nothing you would lack,
You'd be sitting pretty knitting
Nah, I take that back I think
You'd be laughing
Singing; beautiful in pink,
Not a care in the world,
Not a frizz in your hair
Whether it's straight or curled,
Any price I'd pay
To put the wind under your wings
To give you many wonderful shiny things,
For you to experience pleasure
Unbridled and without measure,
Any price I'd pay just to see you smile
A sight so dazzling;
I could see it from a mile...
© okpoet

Always in black
From the summer
To the spring,
Year after year
I am in mourning,
For the love
For the pain,
The one who got away
The one who stole
My heart,
The only one I had,
And even though
I know where to find her,
I prefer to sleep
I prefer to suffer,
The agony of her distance
The cold memories
Frozen photos
Now diluted of color,
I resolve to wake
For the lies of my hopes,
That one day
I'll see her again
Again hear her laughter,
But those dreams now stay
Like splinters
In the hole in my chest,
How sweet would death be
After the torture of my days,
Always cloudy
Because of the sun that left me
For another rainbow...
©okpoet

I wished
You had
Sent cookies
I wished
You had
Sent drugs,
I wished
You had
Sent anything
And everything
Else but your love,
Because,
I can eat the cookies
I can consume the drugs
I can go through anything
And everything,
Leaving not a trace
Stuff my face
And pass out
Forget all about
What has just transpired
Wake up tired
And groggy
My mind a little bit foggy,
Happy to be alive,
But you sent your love
And like a freed dove
It flew out at me
And though it filled me with glee
I'm left emptier
And like a drunk less friendlier
Missing you, wanting you
Needing you; and now I'm blue...
APAD13 -102 © okpoet

Words to describe
What I get from your vibe,
Funny; witty; & warm
Are any of these cause for alarm?
Laid back beach girl
You take people for a twirl,
Contagious are your emotions
But very subtle are your notions,
Make people fall for your character
As if you were a queen with a scepter,
Waving it around commanding attention
But I know this is not your intention,
Your footprints left in my mind faint
But your persona is amicable & quaint,
You are a beautiful contrast
To your surroundings vast,
Not seemingly able to blend in
You stand out, noticeable as sin,
Your eyes wander sometimes; pretty
As if part of the forgotten SETI,
You shouldn't be here in this hell
What I desire for you no genie can quell,
So from my heart; I wish you well...
© okpoet

Whittle me this
Stick I toss
Across the thick
Of fields
Plains in my mind
Vast and wide
No ending near
As I can see
Where the thoughts
Run free
Like deer
Stags I hunt
Come close
To me
I can almost
Touch
If I reach out
And just grab
But I can’t
Hold on
To them
I’ve lost
The reigns
They’re
Out
Of my hands,
I sit back jumbled
Mess
A jigsaw
With no edges
I’m a stones
Throw away
From insanity
But this
Is not
A plea…
© okpoet

There they sit  
In silence
Tension building  
Difficult pretense
Not to tear  
One another apart
Clothes off  
Becoming one heart
Beating wildly  
Instincts attacking
Passion not withholding  
Like a hacker hacking
Past the firewalls  
Broken down
From the feelings strong  
Cannot drown them  
With none other than fiery moans
Embracing their souls  
In the night not drones
Of life's monotonous  
Day in day out
Blazing a heat trail  
Love's route
They'll soon  
Envelop their desires
Feed this kindling  
In their bodies bonfires
At the shores of their  
Seemingly hidden intent
Once they let themselves  
Go find if it was meant
To be or not to be,  
Friends to the world
But lovers behind  
Their doors, herald
To the truth of what  
Cannot be denied  
In the midst of this  
Urban jungle defied...
© okpoet

I served
My heart's feelings
Hors d'oeuvres
Upon a platter
And she sampled
Until it was all gone,
And I thought
That was
The end of that,
But she
Wanted more
Filet mignon and caviar
Vintage wines and cheeses,
And I
Couldn't didn't want to provide
All that she aspired to,
So she walked out
And I
Made more
Hors d'oeuvres
For the next
But they can't see
That these feelings
I serve to one and all,
Are just what I yearn
For myself;
And I do not
Wish to indulge them
Without equal measure
In return,
This taste of excellence
Gateway to Nirvana...
APAD13 - 067 © okpoet

Yeah, you laugh now
But what about
When the joke is over?
What will a smile
Cost me?
I have not
A pence to my name
And this game
Is far from over
But I am sidelined
Wanting to play
Another round,
But it’s all spent
The momentum
Has left the court
And this jester
Jests no more
A fool
Without an audience
Claps no more…

APAD15 - 003 © okpoet

I miss you a little
I miss you a lot,
Somewhere
In the middle
I lost my way
I went for a stroll
And never came back
I didn't mean to leave
I didn't mean to walk away;
It was just that I
Went a little too far
And I lost track
Of time and distance,
Didn't know how
To come back
Where back was;
By your side,
The light was dim
And the darkness
Swallowed my path,
The bread crumbs
Didn't last and I
Found myself
Hoping for a light
That never came;
I can only hope
The day comes
I find you again...
© okpoet

I don't believe what pretty girls say,
Because all they do is with your head play,
So let go of mine, it's not a soccer ball,
For your lies I won't fall,
Fool with me and a fool you'll be
Because the joke's on you; you'll see,
I'm not one to smile forever
If you think you'll get away with your endeavor,
You're following a road with a dead end
And this message to you I will send,
There isn't a road for us to share together
If you won't be honest to the letter
Because I can't go around crossing your T's
Ambling around on my hands and knees
Looking for things that aren't there
While you just sit there and stare
Letting me fumble, tumble, struggle
Withholding your magic; I a mere muggle
Not knowing all the little secrets
That hide behind all your regrets,
Trying so desperately to measure up
To another who's already filled your cup,
So I won't let you keep toying with me
When there's plenty more fish in the sea...
APAD13 020 - © okpoet

In a dark place
My heart hid away,
The shadows in my mind
Had clouded,
A prison for my soul
I couldn't see,
Not a sound
Came through,
Placed it all
In a room,
And lightly
Shut the door,
The pain
Only reality,
Everyday
Just minutes,
On a very loud clock
Ticking,
The essence
Of life a black and white
Reel played before me,
Smile of misery
Dance and tune,
Sadder than me
Only the dead,
But a few words
Did me well,
The key holder
Came, angel
And set me free
Closure arrived
And with it
A new sense
Of peace,
All that was broken
The pieces
Of that past
Had come
Together,
Honey for glue,
Sweet
Familiarity
Of a time
Trivialities
Were but
The greenest
Of grass
Colored glass
All roses
Thorns lost
Forgiveness
From fresh dirt
On my grave
Will sprout
A promise of
Love...
© okpoet

Her last words stung
She told me to f#ck off,
Hanging from the end of her rope
I couldn't reach out,
To lend a hand
Save her soul,
I had failed to see the signs
Amused in my own world,
She pounced tigger-like
Into it and splashed around,
But under her light demeanor
She limped like a hurt creature,
Sometimes her eyes deviated
Something lurked; but I,
Thought it fleeting;
Merely an abstraction in my mind,
We always seemed to laugh
I wondered if we would ever cry
Together; helping leaning into each other;
Striving against the currents
Against the crashing waves of life's emotions,
I wish I could tell the world to f#ck off...
© okpoet

You don't know
Emptiness
Until you have
Everything
And yet you have
Nothing,
When what you want
Really really want
Cannot be had
For any price
Or at any time,
No amount of strength
No amount of patience
Will subdue your desires
And it kills you from within
Unable to replace it,
Right in the middle of
Tangible and not,
An endless fire
A breath that never comes,
An is that never was
And never will be,
Reality is never more
Colder or more surreal...

APAD13 - 124 © okpoet

I'm so accustomed
To writing  
Short stories,
Shorter chapters  
In my book,
Often  
The characters
Have only a sentence
A paragraph,  
A page at most,
But you  
Won't seem  
To go away,
You're a recurring role
Neither a villain  
Nor a hero,
But Impacting  
My tale
At the turn  
Of every page,
You'll transcend
Into a saga...
© okpoet

I'm riddled with guilt,
If I could I'd push a sword
Through my heart to the hilt,
Not being able to exchange one word
Has my soul heavy
So many thoughts
Trying to break through the levy
My stomach in knots,
I'm on my knees
Hoping someone will listen
To my pleas,  
As my eyes do misten
At every memory
With every moment
I am ornery,
Though the pain is potent,
Come alive
And die again
I go in and dive
Into all the way back when,
Trying so hard to refrain
From smudging the stain,
Of my reckless mess
Because I spilt the milk
Broken under duress,
What to do, what not to do, of that ilk,
And I tried to soak it all up
How idiot of me back into my cup,
They said don't, but I did cry
Anyways, because it all seemed a lie,
And I was found there it seemed
It was my crime, even if I denied to the sky,
The doubt settled in, and I was deemed
No better than those liars before me,
And who would believe other than what their eyes see?
Not a chance, not an ounce
Of forgiveness? Because they pounce
Without a second thought
Certain they connected every dot,
That it is so, what they think they know,
And never giving me the fighting lance,
But on bended knee is my stance,
Not proud defiance,
Nor meek as if in receipt of pittance,
But humbly wearing my heart
Even if a sleeve I have not, I am apart,
Not to be mistaken for the rest
All those I've spoken against and detest,
Won't you look into my eyes and truly watch
The honesty in them, no clearer window hatch
To the earnest seeker of pardon from my fall,
And let that ray of sun shine on all...
© okpoet

Love you lots,
Despite the pain
Despite the rain
From my eyes
Under blue sunlit skies,
In spite
Waking up
Restless in the night
Were I
An abandoned pup
I cannot lie,
I miss you
Night and day
And I have no clue
What else to say,
My mind in knots
I cannot undo
As I think of you,
Minor relief
Knowing you're alive
But that disbelief
Still lingers
Nine to Five;
Dead ringers
All the pictures
Permanent fixtures
In my head
That I cannot
Dislocate
Until I'm dead,
And for that I wait
Patiently
Fervently,
Though a race
This is not,
It is a surer bet
Than to ever see your face
Again; which I will never forget...

APAD13 - 146 © okpoet

They told me to go to hell
So here I am; I'm no son of Sam,
But as you can see someone sent me
And I don't know how that came to be,
So please do tell where am I to go from here?
I find all this quite vitriolic
I was neither a ******
Nor an alcoholic,
I may have sung totally off key
And sometimes I did miss
Where I had to ***,
But to hell
I never thought I'd fall,
Regardless that I was pushed
Devil may care Devil may cry
But I won't lie this can't be fair,
To whom do I call to send to press
This unjust event; circumvent
These hellish gates
For the pearly portals
That I see even from these depths,
A plea; please someone; anyone
Humans or immortals
Return me to the earth I walked
I'm sorry; I really am
But to hell? Future quondam
I'm glad now; awake and alive
I'll never again show undeserved blithe...
APAD13 - 023 © okpoet

I hear
The hollow tipped
Words leave your lips
Lightly uttered
To another,
And I imagine them
Piercing my skull
Puncturing my heart,
Would I bleed
A torrential downpour
Of emotions
Or would I deflect?
I am uncertain
But I feel
As though
They've grazed me
A light scarring
Upon me
I inquire
How it is so
That such few words
Can lead
To great tribulation
Within my mind
And I realize
They were grenades
Fragmented ammo
To all within
Earshot and I,
Am a victim...
APAD13 - 092 © okpoet

Stop thief!
I cried after you,
Until in the face I was blue
The moment brief,
I had glanced
Upon your façade
So beautiful he made you; God,
Took my breath away
And on my knees I lay
As images of you danced
Around my head
And I bled
But from where?
You had not touched but a hair
Stop, come back!
I uttered once more
Each minute past
The more energy I lacked
Feeling cold to my core
You were ever so fast,
Yet there in a red pool
I realized faintly aware
You had stolen my heart
The whole of my soul
Oh what a fool!
But I would again stare
Even if I had known this ending from the start
Upon your heavenly guise; pricey toll...
© okpoet

Would that I be
My limbs extending from me
Like trees rooted deeply and stretching
To the skies above,
Would that you be
The winds swaying through me
In gusts and sweeping breeze
Like through a cracked window
Into a smoldering room,
Your love within me
Settling dust on shelves
In the streaking sun,
Would that we be
Fragmented asteroids
Crashing into each others
Atmosphere only flashings of lights
And we wish on these
Broken pieces burning up
As they land like pennies
On hot pavement
That we cannot dig out,
Oh I would; so be
As you would want to be too,
And together we'd be
As these and those
Things ought to do; to be...

APAD13 - 125 © okpoet

Her love is graffiti
On the blank walls
Within me,
All those colors
All just seem
Like different
Shades of red
To me,
As they pool
At my feet
I admire her soul
Not like I have
X-ray vision,
But I've seen
Her beauty faded
Before me
As a rose
That wilts
As a flower
That withers,
All that is pretty
Isn't just plasticine,
It's real flesh
As every breath
Oxidizes from within,
I know that all that will be left
Is like
What it must be
For the deaf and blind
Only what I feel
From and for her
When I'm near...

APAD13 - 130 © okpoet

I never knew dawn could break,
With peace so deep and hope so wide,
Until that first morning when I awoke,
And you lay sleeping by my side.*

I never knew I could laugh,
Without a care in the world; with such ease,
Until that first moment you infected me,
Contagious with your mirth; how you do tease.

I never knew I could feel so alive,
So aware of the world around me,
Until that first kiss we shared,
Electrifying feelings I could see.

I never knew what God had in store,
The plans he wrought long ago,
Until that first night,
I met you on the dance floor.

I never knew how much I could love,
With a fervor unknown to me,
Until that first thought,
I realized you fit me like a glove.

I never knew that I would ever discover,
What I searched for desperately,
Until that first instant,
You my lover...
© okpoet

When I was at my worst
When I was just about to jump,
I got a prescription
From life
Two doses of her
One to three times
A day,
To ease my soul
To bring sleep
To feel again
To make me
Sure footed,
But the side effects
Were worse than
My initial sickness
Heartbreak and doubt
Or so I thought,
In recovery
I look back
And realize
At least
I'm still alive
And I no longer
Want to let go;
Thanks to her,
My placebo...
APAD13 - 054 © okpoet

Lying here, I close my eyes
I attempt to relax; to let go,
But this is near impossible,
I cant get you out my mind
Around you I'm vulnerable,
When I'm not with you
My life seems meaningless,
Why did this happen to me?
You're supposed to be just a friend,
But being so close to you took it's toll,
You're so beautiful; every ounce of you,
I want you for me; I want to make you mine,
But you say you're not attracted to me
What ever did I do to deserve this?
The day I met you has become
Both a marvelous blessing
And a torturous curse,
My heart is in your hands
And you play with it dangerously,
Teasing me with your lips
I'm blinded by your curves,
I'm afraid I can't hold back if you get too close
But these thoughts are killing me,
I can't take this anymore
I wish I'd never met you
I wish you weren't so shallow,
What more could you want from a man?
I've shown you the bright side of life,
We get along so well,
But you want what you want
And no one will sway you from this,
I tried, I really did; uselessly,
Now I have to get you out of my mind
Not an easy task; but I have to follow through,
When I come out of this; I will be stronger
I'll lock away my heart from getting hurt,
It's better we go our separate ways
Lest I break down again, defenseless in your beauty...
© okpoet

I feel the flow of my words
Like I'm donating blood;
But never do I know
When enough is enough,
And I drain myself
Down to the white
Sheet of me;
Just within an inch
Of death,
Having placed
An IV drip
From my veins
Into my pen
And I can't stop;
Writing all the thoughts
That stream
Through my mind
Twenty four / seven
Coverage
Of the weather
In my heart,
How it rains
How it thunders
How it shines;
How the breeze
Blows throughout
When you're in my thoughts
And when you're in my dreams
Which is where you always seem to be;
So, that's where I'll be too, with you forever...
APAD13 - 095 © okpoet

Have you ever thought
That maybe;  
I wanted to get caught,
Wanted to  
Break your heart
You certainly  
Played your part,
Followed your intuition
But I wasn't  
Practicing inhibition,
Staying out  
Till the morning,
Coming home  
To you sitting  
There mourning,
The loss of  
Our once upon a time
Fairy tale start  
Turned **** like a lime,
Shattered looking glass;
Can't bring it back,  
Listen to the jazz
Playing softly  
In the background
Do you really think  
I want to go another round?
Made the exit crystal clear
For you to leave my dear,
I had left the building already
Fire exit  
I set off all the alarms  
But you chose  
To ignore it all
Like one dismisses  
A blocked ID call,
I'm immune to your charms;
Just leave me be,  
I'm no longer your teddy...
© okpoet

Launch your rockets
High, I'm riding this shotgun
Until the chamber's empty,
Bullets come clean
Never a drop of blood,
Exit wound leading to
The hidden trap door
You're hiding in,
Death come lively
Fast and with a ******
Knife slicing through
Poison leaking
Evidence of the ****
You'll drink until parched,
Say it out loud
If you can,
Who,
Murdered; you the only witness
Asleep in the walls
Watching,
Waiting,
Silence deep
Sleep commence,
Your reality
Unwelcome
Chiseled tombstone
You've signed,
Wake in the morning...
© okpoet

Your voice is stuck in my head
Like a dream or a nightmare
I don't know which it will be
As I drift off in my bed,
Out of nowhere
It comes to haunt me,
Like it's pitched a tent
A few words for stakes
Driven deep into my mind
And I wonder what silence
To my heart could have ever meant,
Like all the chosen words on birthday cakes
Would a deeper understanding ever find
In the depth of this pretense,
That this is only by the night
When I know you are there every day
Between every word I say
Such is my plight
But unlike those who seek a remedy
I welcome every shot
Like a Kennedy,
Give me all you've got...

APAD13 - 143 © okpoet

Morning skies
Streaked with feathered clouds,
My eyes open to the light
Free of the night shrouds,
I turn to the warmth next to me,
She is so beautiful;
She fills me with glee,
Her breathing soft;
I embrace her form,
Her skin so yielding to my touch,
Not of the norm,
I reminisce about those other days,
Id wake up alone, cold, in a daze,
Now the sunlight's rays I welcome,
I look forward to tomorrow,
And more days to come,
Had she an idea
Of what she means to my eyes,
Shed blackmail me,
Tease me, and tell me lies,
But as she wakes from her slumber,
I look into her eyes
As they open without a cumber,
I see the love, joy and admiration;
That she holds for me;
I would not dream of desertion,
Would there not be a body
To those eyes; her face;
I would not care
For nothing more but a trace,
Because with her eyes,
Those sky speckled spheres,
She embraces me; and loves me;
And douses all my fears;
I feel whole, a man;
With someone to love and protect,
She will not want,
She will not need, I will effect...
© okpoet

How can I keep it up?
Like how does it stay the sky?
Not Folgers in my cup
That's gravity doing the job like pie
Filling my tooth
See that DJ in his booth
Mixing on the fly
Like the coolest tie dye
Like him I chop chop
And blend never stop
This is the recipe
That will never be
Written down
As I flip upside your frown
There's a message
Hidden on the edge
Of every line
On which I dine
Take the bone
And make stew
This skill I hone
Is only enjoyed by a select few...
© okpoet

You fly forth on wings of dreams
I'm a fool trying to catch you,
But you are not a butterfly
You will not be a part of my collection,
And so further you drift away from me
Yet I continue to chase after you,
You who floated into my dreams
Beautiful winged fairy,
Unattainable and unreachable
Why did you ever cross my path?
Now I'm caught in an endless pursuit
Will I ever hold you within my grasp?
But as long as your image is there
I will continue in this vicious circle,
Following you wherever you may be
And if I ever take hold of you
I will never let go,
For you are my shooting star
My everlasting dream,
But fly away and be merry
For I do not wish to intercede
In your path; your fiery flight,
Fly and be just within reach
I will forever give chase,
For within my restless dreams
I will always love you...
© okpoet

I couldn't call dibs on your heart
Since I didn't love you at the start
I fought the ropes that pulled
Within me; to feel more than I  
Ever have; a hunger grew
Within me; for any minute
Any second around you,
This thirst was different
Than I ever knew,
Never wanted someone
Because I didn't want
To ever have to let go
Always cutting ties
Before they'd anchor
Me down to earth,
For your smile; your mirth
I'd mercilessly ****,
But you had the last word to say
Who you belonged to,
I never prayed this hard,
To quell the ugliness of jealousy,
But it's there like weeds
I have to pull up everyday
Yet from this I can't get away;
You're someone else's
And I must understand
I'll never be with you
Unless it was a dream;
And even then I cannot  
For as you know I never do;
Hope he knows what he's got,
He may one day not have any
Material possessions;
But he's got the greatest
Single valuable on earth;
Your love...
© okpoet

Overthink
Overthought
What am I
To get over?
She is the real Durden
Everything that I am not
But an apple turnover,
Spickle and spackle
Listen to the crinkle
And the crackle,
What plays the mind
If the records
No longer spin,
Retreat retreat retreat
On repeat
No baffle
To this wiffle
Waffles in the AM,
Pockets empty
There is nothing to collect
Unemployed dreams
I question the sparkle,
The sweet of the sprinkles
This life long ago wrecked...

APAD16 - 006 © okpoet

I know you ain't comin'
Back, bad lovin'
But I was funny
Come back to me hunny,
I don't mind waitin'
If that's the game
I ain't hatin'
It's all the same
To me, one day
One year, one lifetime
What can I say
Your love wasn't a crime,
But your getaway
Was the worst part
Of this play,
Target my heart
But you only missed
Where you hadn't ******
All around and over
But now it's Grover,
Trashed and abandoned
Crushed four leaf clover
Cause I didn't bring you
The luck you searched for,
I know you ain't comin'
Back, but your song I'm still strummin'...
© okpoet

I gave you
My heart
Like I gave you
My jacket
On a cold day
When all was gray,
And you thanked me
Like one thanks
The person
Behind the counter
With the loose change
They just gave you,
But I figured
You'd leave me
Something of yours
Like one loses
Their umbrella
On a rainy day
That clears up sunny,
But you kept my jacket
And my heart
And now I'm cold
And empty
And you left me
Out in the storm,
But all I care
Is that you're warm and dry
As I patiently wait for the sun...
APAD13 - 104 © okpoet