i have this deeprooted fear
that someday it’ll stop
that everyone i love
will tire of me
and my constant state
of falling apart
the fear tugs at my soul
aches in my bones
until i go numb
buried in the sheets with you
desperate to make you stay
it makes my hair stand up
my stomach go sour
i want to run away
so bad it hurts
because i’ve learned
to settle for a glass half empty
to ruin good things
before they ruin me
i’m playing a losing game
pretending this is viable
wasting away just out of reach
out of touch