Said I was sheltered
Then showed me some real ****** up ****
I could never forget
You left a mark
In the worst way
Like an earthquake
You shook me up
Opened my eyes
To all the lies
Opened the door
To all that was hidden
I should have never seen
Knew me the best
And still did what you did
No respect
For me
**** hit differently
After seeing it so vividly
And I can’t deny  
Thought **** wasn’t fair to me
But now I see it so clearly
Tunnel vision
The bigger picture appeared to me
Something bigger
I’m meant to be

n.y.g

I wish things were different
I wish we talked more
I wish you’d let me in
I wish we were closer
Instead we’re distant
You linger through my mind
Thoughts I can’t push down
Feelings I can’t ignore
Memories I cannot erase
Everything is you
I can’t no I won’t decide
Between me or you
Let you go ?
I hold on tight to whatever we have left
I drown myself in my own pain and sorrow
Because I can’t express this to you
I wish I was a priority to you
What am I to you ?
Your words don’t match your actions
You leave me feeling lost
But still I stay
Hoping you change
I wish things were different

You effect me in ways I didn't know existed
affect me
infect me like a disease
inject me with your toxic love
an adrenaline rush
the high i can't seem to shake; You're intoxicating
Over medicating on you
I feel my soul levitate and become one with yours
Intertwined hands
locked eyes
as you go deep inside
steal my mind
You're one of a kind
I can't seem to find
Captured my body
it is yours now
You've taken over me
Without realizing you're lying
'Cause this high makes me sick
Suffocating on your words
like smoke that's so thick
Blinded
I can't see what way to go
tell me to confide
in you
we're on different paths
No matter where i go
i always lose
confused
my mind starts to play tricks on me
i just see visions of you. . .

Tell me what to do.

-n.y.g