Out of sight
A mere mention
Of yesterday's sunlight
The golden touch
Upon your soul
The peace it portrays
Gone now is the comfort
Of the sun's protective embrace
As the clouds roll in
Made aware of being cold again
Lonely and vulnerable
Sunshine and safety stolen away
And made a distant memory
It goes on and on
Not a ray of light in sight
So long that the darkness
Becomes the norm
Being cold becomes the norm
Being alone becomes the norm
And the night comes
Devoid of the light of your memories
The clouds finally are defeated and retreat
And the moon shows her face
Reminding you that the sunshine never really leaves
Even if it is faraway
It's coming back for you
To warm your skin
And hug your soul

Here I am
Frustrated
Because I feel like the poetry isn't flowing
Then I think of you
You take my frustrations away
You paint everything in poetry
And it flows
You are the blanket that warms and comforts me
Late at night
The shooting star that inspires me
My beautiful princess
We sometimes ask ourselves
If dreams come true
I know they do
Because of you
The purest heart
Yours I hold
You've given me my innocence back
With your heart
I would like to grow old
Hold my hands
While they age and tire
You will always be the spark to my fire
Tantric Poetry 2016

All day
New pains exposed
Hard work?
An understatement
It even hurts to write
Right now
Dirt and sweat mixed together
Sometimes with a little bit of blood
Oh how it burns when it flows
Into your eyes and into the small cuts
But
Hard work does offer some clarity
Some satisfaction
Some pride
Knowing that you worked hard
Is rewarding
But
It can **** patience
For complainers
Abusers and users
Freeloaders and those that made excuses
People forget that in order to make
Dreams come true
A certain amount of work is required
Sacrifice is necessary
If you really want something bad enough
You gotta chase your dreams down and work for them

If you ever walked a mile in my shoes
You would understand how much I love you
It actually hurts
There is pain inside
But only
Because you're not really happy
That breaks me
Everything I've ever done
And stood up for
Made me a better man
And helped you to fall into my heart
I am no fool
But I sincerely love you
Your happiness is still my responsibility
I cannot walk away in these shoes
My happiness is your's now  
If you find someone to take your heart
Away from me
Let me know
I would give them up

I want you to be happy

Should the heavens ever allow it, I would touch your hand and our eyes would meet.

If you touched my hand what would you feel?
If our eyes met what would you feel?

Magic.  Everything pure.  Beauty.  There are not words to describe it.
You touch me from miles away and make the world seem large and small.

You silence me in the way that my lungs are incapable to gather air, my heart dances to its own beat and words are a language I must learn again.

There is something especially special about you.  Maybe you are designed for me.  Maybe I am designed for you.

What I know is this.   I design a kiss.
A kiss that consists of me and you would not and could not be described as mere fireworks that would be a crime to represent it as such for it would be much more than that

A total crime.  Everything about you takes me.  Away.  From all my troubles and hurt and pain.  There is something inside of you that heals me

Miles apart but not my heart

That which heals also needs healing at times,
Dark evil beings haunt me and you chase them away without hesitation

That which heals also needs healing at times,
Dark evil beings haunt me and you chase them away without hesitation

I am broken. Beautifully.  You have touched me deep in my heart and other places.  I'm still a kid.  I have wonder in my heart and you poke it.


* You may be broken beautifully yes but my darlin there is gold in your cracks and diamonds have formed in your eyes,
I dont think you realize the hold you hold on me,
It is almost as if the first time we spoke the universe decided we would never part ways creating stars with out names on them.

I want to fix your hurt and heal your bruises,
And make you see there is no need to be sorry for feeling hurt at times

Can we make everything okay? Can you save me from myself?  I am so broken.  I don't want to pass that along o you.  Because I really love you.

*I will hold your heart in mine,
I will keep you safe from all that harms you till my last breath escapes my lips and my heart ticks for the last time,
Cos darlin,
You mean the galaxy to me

I used to believe that it wasn't possible
True love
Two people designed specifically for each other
I spent most of my life, as I know it
Thinking this
You came into my life
And took me by surprise
That first kiss
The gentleness
We said as many words with our mouths
As our eyes did
They told me exactly
What you wanted
I wanted it too
You
Found yourself in my heart
As my true love

If I sit and think
About all the things that I don't regret
They outweigh the things
That I have done out of selfishness
But they still hold weight
Regret searches you out
Squeezes your heart
Tells you no
Makes you not want to take a chance
Teaches you shame
It is a sad world when you can be broken
By yourself
A couple of true friends
That love you for you
Can sometimes be the difference
Between being lost or found

As the night grows more quiet
And the stars become more still
Your memories will slip in
And take you back in time
You can get lost in your own mind
Wondering how you arrived where you are
Questioning yourself and the decisions you've made
Not knowing if you were right or wrong
Sometimes knowing
You were wrong
The silence of the night will find you
And let you see yourself without the distractions

No matter what I say or do
Nothing is going to change you

You helped me to realize
That loving someone
Wasn't always going to be enough
And it doesn't matter how much you love them
They really have to want it
And they have to want to open up

How can we be on the same page
When we're not even in the same book?
I've written chapters about you and I
Yet, you write about me only when you're in trouble
Here I am for you
But that takes a toll

I need someone to be there sometimes too
But, that doesn't change the fact
I love you

I saw you as beauty
A true art form
I was a fan and couldn't get enough
The curves and shape of your body
The way your smile
Could pick me up if I was down
The way your touch
Would steal my breath away
Throughout my life
I had been searching for you
You
Were who I had been looking for

Make it, grow it, feel it
Love it, work it, do it
Say it, mean it, be it
Hold it, caress it, endure it
Question it, solve it, understand it
Nurture it, direct it, protect it
Smile for it, live for it, die for it
Cry for it, blush for it, never deny it

So many little tests
Presented with we contend
Understanding the risks
Of the chances we take
To take that chance
Should we prevail or fail
Some failures beat us
Down
Into the depths
And we may never be the same again
Some successes also
Make us never the same again
Because we've gotten so high off of it
We cannot see straight
I've made a lot of money before
And it has made me arrogant, ungrateful, and wasteful
I've also been broke and poor
It made me more appreciative, understanding, and productive
The middle ground that works for all of us
Is an individual thing
Prevail or Fail
Is nothing more than a perspective
Life is a game we play with no clear winners
But if you keep love in your heart
It doesn't matter how broke or rich you are
You have prevailed

This reoccurring  problem
That continues to trouble me
Is fighting my own destiny
Mostly
It is because of other's expectations
Of what they think I'm supposed to do with my life
But their perspective is not mine
Maybe what I do
Isn't going to make everyone happy
But I need to focus and search for
What will make me happy
I need to accept my destiny
And choose to be happy with it

I will be your hero
Let me save you from yourself
I will hold you tightly
In my arms and in my soul
The affection I have for you
Will never grow old
You are the final piece
That completes me
Saving you will save me too
Let me be a real man
A good man
Your partner, lover, and friend
Let me be your hero
We can fight fear and loneliness together
I will give you 100% of my everything
If you will have me
I will be yours
Always

The idea was very novel
That I should write words
Again and again
To find new ways to tell you
How much I loved you
Turning something intangible
Into something so beautiful
It hurt to fully absorb it
How many ways can I find
To tell you how I love you?
The prospects are endless
As is my endearing affection for you

Little flower
I consider you closely
And admire your beauty
You are a little miracle
Your colors and fine lines
Every little bit of perfection
In your creation
Leaves me awestruck
I'm glad I took the time
To find you and appreciate you
You represent hope and determination
You are my little flower
As the sun causes you to grow
Your simplistic beauty inspires me to grow as well

My hunger for recipricated love
Had left me starving
I was famished because I had been left without
Too much at once could **** me
I had to take it slow
So unfamiliar to me
I couldn't even remember how to do it properly
Out of place
Out of mind
Out of patience
Out of time
Wondering if this circus will ever end
Keep on giving
Never receiving
I'm setting a trend
All I want
Is to get what I give

The rain has come and soaked me to the bone
Set me out to dry so I can get along
Should the clouds turn against me again
I'll be alright because I'll still be alive
Whether it's thunder or lightning
Rain or snow
If I get to my bed at the end of the night
Everything is going to be alright
If a storm cloud follows me around
An umbrella will become my best friend
I won't be caught unprepared again
Things aren't always inclement
Knowing that the sunshine will eventually come back
Is what keeps me going

Moonlight slips in and touches your face
Reminding you of another
While being held by someone else
The moonlight takes you back in time
To a place where shivers and goosebumps
Were the results of the right touch
Wonder and innocence still existed
Magic was not only possible
But was the definition of that time
You found solace in the moonlight
Because it reminded you to be happy
To have been lucky enough to crossed paths
With someone that made you feel like that
Not everyone has a chance
Being truly free in that moonlit dance

As the past slips in
I remember
Sometimes the smallest things
Trigger a cascade of memories
And I remember you
As the past pulls me back
I wonder how I ended up here
Like reading chapters of a book
To not understand how you managed to end up on page 53
Is kind of how I wonder what ever happened between you and me
As the past teaches me lessons
I learn to look back
Just as I look side to side
Before I cross the street
So I remember what obstacles
Tripped me up before
I know this time
To walk a little more carefully
As the past broke my heart
I'm still not fully broken
The future holds a chance at a new start