You never forget how this feels,
Bones setting straight,
Jaw clenching in tune with arrhythmia,
I will always remember how to forget,
Forget sorrow and heartache,
Forget them and their taste,
$50 in my veins is nothing,
Compared to the price of regret.

There will be others,
Maybe that's just a part of love,
Choosing not to fall again,
But instead to stay.

I imagined a life without you,
It looks the world did,
Before I got glasses,
Still in color,
But insignificant.

The feeling of crashing
Beneath an ocean you carved
Waves you created
Choosing not to swim
When you know how
When fighting to breathe
Feels more like giving up
Than drowning does

How do you tell someone
You'd rather sink to the bottom
Than get in their boat

I wanted this so badly,
Until I didn't.

It won't be the same,
Happiness is something earned,
I don't have it to give,
I can't with you.