After all this time
I still get shy
You came to visit
And my heart goes ballistic
Beating faster and faster
Every time I walk past her

Oh God I still love you
You’re a heavenly view

To see your angelic face
I can still remember the taste
Of your lips,  
Sweet and honey
Richer than money

So am I loyal
Or
Pathetic

for still loving you

If I could give you everything of me, I would
I could give you my brain, so I could be thinking about you all the time.
I could give you all of my 24/7 of life, just so I can give you my time
I could give you my whole heart, so you can have my love.

but when she left...
she took all of me
leaving me with nothing for me to give

Hi,
I still love you.

Never fall in love with the one who makes you cry (all the time)
Never fall in love with the one that belittles your feelings.
Never fall in love with the one who says they will never hurt you
Never fall in love with the one who says they love you but their actions shows otherwise
Never fall in love with the one with many apologies after each **** up they make
Never fall in love with the one that always leave
Never fall in love with the one that doesn’t make time for you
Never fall in love with the one who always makes excuses.
Never fall in love with someone who gives you 1% when you give 99%
Never fall in love with the one you sell your soul to
Never fall in love with the one who asks for a million chances. They shouldn’t have hurt you in the first place.
Never fall in love with someone who promises forever
Never fall in love with someone who makes empty promises

My heart feels like it’s about ready to burst
The stitches and bandaids can no longer keep it whole
each wound starts expanding, breaking it more apart
my broken pieces cannot be put back together.
To my heartbreaker, if this is it, can you carve my heart out? And donate mine to your jar of hearts.

This is for you
You bring life out of me
You teach me how to live and make me forget about all my troubles
My dear Lesley
I love you with all my heart
& never forget that you are what makes this world shine
The world is yours
Thank you for all that you have done for me
Thank you for being my friend
& stood by my side when it was me against the world.
For everyday I am grateful for your existence
Anyone would feel blessed to have a person like you in their life.
Never forget that you are so much better than what anyone else will ever be.
This is for you
My dear Lesley

I am
    trying
        to remember
             you
and
    let go of
          you  
    at the same time

If I could meet you all over again
I would
& perhaps the timing would be right

I hope you're okay
Hoping it gets easier day by day

You said "you're hanging"
How I wish it was more than that

You're a strong girl
You got this

I know it's tough
But when you get through the storm
A rainbow will come out
And enlighten your world.

So where do I go from here    
                                 now that you broke my heart  
                 did every damage to me from the start
                              How do I heal a broken *****?
                     All I am to everyone is just a burden
                                             Because you broke me
                                    Not leaving me in one piece
                            Please, Im begging on my knees
                                                           ­ 
                                                            Wha­t do I do?
                                      To mend this broken heart

Lord only knows how much love I have for you girl
We met when both of our hearts were broken
We cried together
We laughed
We been through everything and honestly there is not a single soul that could replace you
i need you
And this is an oath to you
No matter how far apart we come in life
I will always be here for you
And I will do anything for you
You are my best friend
And I love you with all my heart
**Happy Birthday

I forgive you
For the way you pushed me away far out to the ends of the world,
How you wired me to your path of destruction.
for all the days I spent assembling a flood of my tears only to find you evacuating with pieces of me that I invested in you.
for all the empty promises that came out of them soft lips of yours
who's kisses are tattooed all over my skin inked with your lies & secrets,  
for the innumerable amount of chances you asked for,
taking my love for granted.
for your "apologies,"
That constituted to no change whatsoever.
I forgive you for breaking me
the kind of breaking where there is nothing but solitude & emptiness.
I forgive you,
At least I'll try to.

I went ballistic
I let everything out
I know that wasn't the reaction you were expecting
But I'm tired
Of excuses
& the sorry's
that you don't even mean

Each day seems like I'm fighting a battle.
So yeah, it is a long day.
As I see the sun rise until it descends to the ends of the earth, I pick up pieces of me.
Little by little.
And pray to God that I win this war.

I am trying to hold on
but
There’s only so much I can carry
If I could just let go
I
Will
Be
Set
Free...

I am still lost
& it’s only been a year
You were my home
I sought shelter within you
but now i have no home
and it’s been a year since I’ve gone missing
However...
No ones been looking for me.
Or even care to noticed

I love you and I know that doesn’t make sense because how can I still love you after experiencing the most ****** thing. but all I know is that everything made sense when I was with you. I wish you could come back to me. I felt so safe.
I love you with all my heart and I wish you could have chosen me I wish for so many things out of you and me.  But I know I can’t be with someone who isn’t even sure about me what kind of relationship is that right?
I’m not naive,  you may be my first love but that doesn’t mean it was supposed to be like this. I’m not naive because I knew exactly how I felt about you and I’m pretty sure I’m grown enough to know what the **** to feel.
You were my best friend my other half and it’s not easy losing two people at once. It’s not easy losing the person that means so much to you  
I don’t know when it will ever be enough for me. I just know that this love keeps going. You still give me butterflies whenever you talk to me. And if I were to see you right now I know my whole face would feel  hot.
I get so happy whenever you text me.
I wish you were sure about me I wish you could commit to me, I wouldn’t ever hurt you
I would protect you.  And love and cherish you.
I guess none of these things were enough for you to stay. I guess you’re seeking for something else that I can’t give you. Even if we’re no longer in each other’s world I still pray for  you & your well being. And even if it means you being happy without my existence I still wish it upon you. I miss you terribly and not a day goes by that I don’t think of you.
*these are all the things I want to say but I can’t.

I yearn
I wonder
I must have it
the feeling of being enough

I Still Love You
And trust me
If I could stop loving you, I would.

I
Am
Just
So
*******
Tired

Of being in love with you.
no matter how much I’ve tried, my heart yearns for you
Please stop seeking me
You make it so hard to live in this world
when all I want to do
Is get away from you

When will it stop?
The hysteric cries?
The excruciating feel of your heart breaking?
The love?
The sadness
The feeling of being unwanted
I want it to all end.

Mother,
You told me not to make the same mistakes and settle for someone who doesn’t value me.
To not believe a word they say when they come back running just because they can’t find anyone willing to put up with their ****
I know you made that mistake with dad, I know how much disappointment you faced when he turned cold.
I understand every emotion and heartbreak you went through
Because I’m just like you
I kept having hope.
You cried for me every time she turned cold
You kept telling me to walk away before it’s too late
And if it wasn’t for you I would still be in that same place.
Dad may have not seen the diamonds in your eyes,
But you are the sun and you keep shining every **** day.

“I forgive you, Wether or not you are sorry for anything you have done. I forgive you, if it is true what i’ve heard, that you fooled around with a girl during your ten day leave. I forgive you for leaving without saying a word to me. I forgive you for making me feel unworthy after hearing that you thought that i wasn’t pretty enough for you to date... perhaps you never think of me anymore and maybe this means nothing to you. so i guess this is mostly for me, but i forgive you. and just a little tip, don’t be a coward...be the kind of guy you’d want your sister to be with. Happy birthday,“

As soon as I’m about to step out of this quicksand

You walked back and yelled “wait!”

Falling back into the pit of sand, I prepared myself to suffocate once more

The cycle will never end

I remember it all too well.
The feeling of feeling lucky
thinking this is a forever thing.
you and me

There is no way in unsaying I love you
Because I feel it deep in my flesh
in my broken heart

It's been months
And i am still on quicksand
Stuck on you
The sinking is very dreadful
Minutes turn to an hour
An hour turns into years.

*and all I can do is write sad words about you

If i had a clone
I am sure you would take advantage
Like always
Hate to break it to you
But I cannot exist in two places at once
I am not magical
You cannot decide to leave
then want me again

I gave my heart to a ******* fool