I'm high as a star
Spent the night gazing at mars

I left my head by Pluto
I came back to bed
I can see the stars when my eyes close

The half moon brighter than full
I only ever wish I could look closer
that I could turn off all the lights

Living in the city
I see airplanes pass by
all the time



//

I stare into Venus
Slowly moving behind the mountains

It won't be long
till I see it tomorrow

we only talk in the open
this is how it starts
two months pass
I'll make you mine

you'll be mine
just give it time

I'm patient
can't wait for October

taking it slow
I hope to see you soon

I'll let you in
no one has to know

here we go again
falling in love

here I go again
is it safe

what do you think about love
real love

do you want real love
are you feeling love drunk

focus on me
let's talk about love

are you lovesick
playing hide and seek

you're a loveholic
romance is everything
it's always love first

let me hold you together
I want to see you grow
let me see you fall apart

I'm your lonely bird
be my lovely bird

let me see you fly
I cut off my wings for you
let me see you cry

my lover
you have your world
come and see mine

don't run away
you are my universe

I've been thinking about
now answer
what do you think about love

12:25
I wonder if you know how loved you are

Driving in the night
You always turn away from the moon
I've spoken with stars
They love you too

I hate leaving you behind
Hoping you'll catch up in time

Echo in my mind
Memories of you & I

I'll miss you
thank you

Remember you are loved

Drive me home with the windows down

Turn around

The moon keeps an eye on you
When you're looking away

Thank you
Remember so many love you

I'll always want to stay

I'll keep on talking with stars

Ask them how you are

You are loved

he likes the little things
I don't think he sees the sun
nor the flowers bloom
it's all about driving around


you want money
I'll give you everything

I'm desperate for you

you let no one in

feel like I'm talking to you through a window

he likes the lights
wondering will when you'll let me in
I'm a burning candle

sometimes I wonder

liar
liar
your blood seems lighter

telling me I can't reach your age
let's fight

call you once
now twice
maybe one more time

saying the young
can't reach your mind

look who's beside you
her eyes filled with youth

you like younger girls

little unfair

you play a ***** game
let's fight

calling me once
now two times
maybe one more time

suicide is dressed in white
they tell you
come with me into the light

It's always too late
when you realize
you're never coming back

you say you're going to sleep
but your lights are still on

the lights are still on

police cars are outside
we're a little scared they're here for us

I bet
he feels so smug
up in heaven

it doesn't feel right
I bet he likes that

we're avoiding eachother
I don't tell you anything

just give me nothing
like always

I have to do everything
I used to love you so so much

I don't know you anymore
where's the nice guy I met years ago

don't feel so sorry

....................................
                          ­             I don't care

                                                                ­         leave
                                                                ­           me
                                                              ­              be
  ????                  
                       ­                                                                 ­!!!!

hey poetry
why do you follow me

obsessed with me
you take control

poetic dreams

I write everything I see

sometimes I see a lie

the truth is blind

hey poetry

why
are you so close to me

stop following me

let me breathe
find a moment to speak

for you I am good

and I am the worst

Cigarettes
Can you keep a secret
Will you hold it

I wonder
is there somewhere I can love you freely

It's been you
You
You


Throwing out memories
inside my head
I can't see myself just you

I know we climb this mountain
to come down so often

I know this life isn't what we wanted

Separated
You and I

In another universe

We're still side by side

god is always cruel
selfish
jealous
self centered
god is a man

your sad eyes haunt me
how can you look so miserable

if you're not okay
would anyone know?

if you're not well
would you tell someone else?

your eyes haunt me
you looked so dead
not in a good way

maybe you lost your soul
can't find it?

maybe your heart stopped
did you feel any heartbeats when we talked?

your eyes haunt me
the lonely boy
all alone inside that room

i can't help him
can't make him better
can't give him what he wants either

i had a shoulder for you to cry on
i had space to keep your darkest secrets
i would digest your shame and guilt

but i can't take your ego
your pride

so stay away from me

keep your haunted gaze
far away from me

cigarettes and beer
is that how you smell

you're dating a girl
looks so much like me

unfortunately
I'm prettier
so it seems

If i stare at your cigarette long enough
will it go up in flames

if I stare at you long enough
will you know what I'm thinking

walking away
turning away
looking away

I'm far away from you in so many ways

I don't like the chase
I don't like the run

I'll sit here
watch you with somebody else

I love a boy who doesn't love me back

I have a friend
Who I never talk to anymore

I went to sleep dreaming
he would see me the way I see him

I never respond to my
Friends messages

It started with wanting to know his name

Wanted to be his friend

I wanted him to talk to me
and ask me things
I would only tell him

My friend
she waits for me
I have forgotten
She was my everything

Before him
before a rose

I feel like a pressed flower
inside a book

One he'll forget about

It's been raining
Like if god answered
My prayers late

But it's okay


And will i be ?


Will i be ?

And i see the bees

On the pretty flowers

Unbothered

I see myself in you
I'm pulling myself away
think I just saw my reflection

you follow my steps
crushing my expectations

hold my breath
up all night
feeling messed up


call me when you think to much

I see myself
in someone else

I'm pushing myself away
I don't want to fall in the water

you look like an angel
I've been dying for a miracle

could you change it

please make this end

looks so shallow
I'll drown

I see myself in you
please go away

this won't end

thinking maybe you were my angel

I'm drowning
asking for help

could you be my miracle

what does it mean
when I see that look in your eyes
are you coming home late
do i wait or let you ring the bell

did you take an umbrella to school
is your head hurting
are you hungry

please don't worry anymore
I'm filled with guilty thoughts

you carry a heavy breath
your bones are slow

i hope you rest well
I hear you in the mornings
when you leave me all alone

everything is better here
the sky is darker and the stars are brighter
the rain is more nice
your alone time is good
people don't make fun of you
everything is better
now that i'm
*home

My house
Your house
Their house

I have no house
Sleeping under a sky
Clouds flying by

Have no walls
I see it all

Stormy nights
Endless days

My house is their house
I have no house

There's no floor
Trying to hold steady
Feeling so heavy

Breathing in the fog
I don't want to lose sight
What's mine
Is yours

No longer mine anymore

I have a feeling
you don't know what is love

where do you go
where do I go

when I'm all alone
when I'm with you

there's nothing for me here
thought I'd be a better man
I lied
I don't want to change

if I go
you know
where I go

if I know
you don't

if you know
I won't tell

teach me
how to stay

I want to leave
again
and again

no one says my name
I miss you so much

now I'm so sad
now I'm so sad
now I'm so sad
now I'm so sad


I don't want to be alone
I don't want to be alone
I don't want to be alone
I don't want to be alone

leave me alone
leave me alone

I hope you forgive me for all the things I never do
I hope you forgive me for all I never say

I hope you're not hopeful
I can't change
I wait
I wait

maybe I'll give up the day I forgive myself
for all this pain

thank you
for never understanding

thank you
for never listening

thank you
for never paying attention

I fell part in front of you
not once did you catch me

I hope you forgive me
for not telling you better

I blame myself for not being better

you won't change
I waited
I wait

maybe one day
we can be hopeful for better things

I want to cry
I want to breathe in your air

I want to live in your lungs

your eyes sparkle
I wonder when is the right time

killing myself to understand you

no signs
no life
little time

I want to go home
I wish to be left alone

hi hello
what's your darkest truth

black holes
******* in all common sense
feeling a little like outer space
my blood filled with stardust

name me
like an unknown
alien

I'll show you the galaxy

I've got no home
everywhere I go

temporary
floors

hey
are you still hurting

I should've known
you would hurt me

why am I so naive

never thought you would make me feel so small
so gone

I'm not going back

don't talk
don't think
don't look at me


I'm rotting
inside my own heart

thank you

for killing me

It will be hard to miss you

now you're resting
six feet underground

I'm wondering who will water the plants you left
I wonder who will care for the strays
no one has your compassion
your love and patience

is it harder to not cry
or sob for a dead loved one

I'll miss you
too much for my own good

every day won't be the same
I just want to be with you again

you make me go to sleep
I can't believe
I hate that you know
where I sleep
I want to tear away
the skin of my face
break my bones
I'm so wrong
to keep wanting
to let everything go
now everyone sees
what I see
It gets harder to breathe
my veins feel weaker
as I move
I don't speak my pain
so where does it go
the pit of my stomach
or the far end of my throat

asking myself
what do I live for
who do I live for

I'm listening along
it feels like I'm there
can I go back

it feels like it's pouring outside
far away
it might

waiting for the end
I see you there
somewhere downstairs

I missed you for a second
I remember the pain
I think I'll be okay

if I never see you again

Follow me
follow me

I'll show you my dreams

I write
and say I can't feel

I write
when I'm empty
swimming in space

Follow me inside
the black hole
in my head


Feel the pressure within

I'm dying
to find out

Where this life goes

I even predicted my own death
for tomorrow

Loving you is very quiet
silent hurting
bleeding heart
broken

I love you till the sun goes down

You never say what I want you to say

I feel like plastic

We were meant to be
all living beings have an end

Words come out
In ways I didn't plan out

Maybe if I stay quiet
You'll want to keep me around

Maybe if I keep it down
I won't seen so small

I always feel like I'm letting you down

I'm happy
I'm sad
I'm mad
I'm happy
I'm sad
I'm mean
I'm depressed
I'm happy
I'm suicidal
I'm mad
I'm confused

Oh well time to get ready for the next day

I can't tell you no
I can't ever say the truth

I speak lies
I smile and act like everything is fine

late nights
I hear the train call
I wonder what's it like to fall

I imagine myself running far
I never make the first step outside
the world will **** me if I hide I can survive

I've lost my right ear
I hate opening my eyes
this is me is this forever

I'm desperate
I'm changing again
I want to say everything
I speak nothing when I try

I hate the daylight
I wish to live inside the dark
I'm alive in the pitch dark
where no one can find me

sad poems
are my medicine

sadness
feels like a blanket
and I'm still cold

I'm sad when others
feel blue

I feel heavy
knowing it's because of me

sometimes my existence
causes sadness

sadness to others
and myself

sad songs
are my medicine

it's okay to be sad

it's okay
to be

I don't have a face
because I am your reflection

I know how much you love me
I'll never let you touch me

Just want better for you

Rearrange my room
Nothing feels new

The ring on your finger
soon a curse

I always want better for you

we shouldn't sit in the same room alone
my mistake for ever trusting you

an ounce of kindness
got me into a hell of a mess

I want you to sleep
so I can crawl into your nightmares

are we still friends now
are you sorry now