I don't have pictures of you on my phone

I wonder why we don't talk anymore

it doesn't make sense

you're like a shooting star
so fast you disappear from my sight

I had you inside my hands

a year meant nothing

all the days and nights

burn to ashes I'll never see again

so easily we give up

I'll won't see you again

it's just all so sad to me

I can't forgive myself

but I will miss you every afternoon

when time stops and I think of you

I wish I could lie
In a sleepless dark night I
I don't want to lie

I don't want you anymore

do you need me

I don't like your ideations

complaining

can't listen to a word I say

crying

I'm hiding

silence

all I want is silence

you're so poisoned

you're so toxic

I can't breathe

please don't chase after me

I don't want you anymore

so regretful I'd ever keep you around

I hate to be so harsh

you don't want to snap out of it

addicted to the bad environment

you love the dramatics

why are you crying

you create disasters

I'm disappointed

who are you now

who hurt you

I'm afraid

did I

I could almost feel your hand in mine
it's not there anymore

your long straight
plain hair
not chocolate
more like an almond
color

Your Bones
I could break
in one twist

your wrist in my whole hand

you have no clothes

I wanted to buy you some

---
I can't remember your voice

maybe if I think
I would

I can

but I don't want to

your laugh
your hands

Your chocolate eyes
coffee black

are faded into the pit bottom
of my head

could we go see a movie on the weekend
if I ever see you again

a noche soñé que me soñabas
no me agradas
dónde estabas
no te quiero
te digo que te vayas
dime algo
para olvidarte
si no piensas en mi
no me busques
no eres mío
no puedo darte mí corazón
no sabes del amor

everyone is laughing at me

out loud
inside their heads

everywhere I go
I see the look in their eyes

I'm pathetic
I know

Alone
behind doors

I stay away

I never hurt others
I only hurt myself

everyone is watching me
everyone is talking about me

I'm a disappointment
I'm not what they expected

I'm not who they want me to be

all I know is pain

I've been told there is more

they say I can get better

they say
try my best

no signs of change

I hurt
I hurt
it hurts

they say everything will be okay

they say

everything feels better now

they say
they say
they say
they say

I'm afraid

I sabotage my own happiness

yellow roses
in my coffee

thinking of you
if I call you back
I'll keep dreaming

I don't want to be in love with you
for so long

I know that the feelings never last forever

water so cold
by the morning so warm

I don't want to know if you love me or not

there are clouds in my
glass of milk

dreamy little star

can't you see

I can't breathe

My eyes are falling

they keep looking for yours

rain is falling from your fingertips
your cheeks

I've always felt like a raindrop
out of thousands in the sky
destined to fall

come back to the sky


come back to me
let's sleep in a cloud
until it's time to fall again

\/\ cut my tongue off today
I stabbed my eyes too

I look so good on the outside
why don't you look inside \/\

is it so bad to want you

midnight
thinking about you

all the things we did together

I don't want to be alone
I hate spending time without you

getting lost in my head
one of these nights
I'll message you goodnight or good morning

I have to die
I'll never know if you feel the same

would love to hear your voice again
would love to sleep with you on weekend

is it true

I don't understand

I like reading ghost poems
their writers are gone
we'll never find them

my only weakness
is always running back

this sinkhole
keeps me pressed up against
the strong current

I love how we try and find the solution
only to return where we started

where is the rain
I'm seeing heavy clouds all day

I can go on
how I want rain
but I won't cry

breathe in
breathe out

I don't want to see you die
such a beautiful tree
please don't leave

all this time you never grew
I never knew you were dying

cry a little harder
I can't hear you

taking to your brother
I'm still around

carry it everywhere
tired of staring at yourself

give me a break
there's nothing to hope for
you haven't blinked all day

do you hear me going insane
the way you crawl into your head

leave me
your empty body

I have to stare
the way
slowly die

it's 5 am
give me a break

turn the light off
no one is coming for us

all alone

cry louder
no one can hear you

I won't hear you

waiting for the bus
the bus I can't get on
the bus I dream of

I think she's inside
I'm waiting to sit down

I'll say good morning now
I'll say have a good day
I promise

I'll lean my head against the window and listen to music like I used to

that wasn't too long ago
maybe a decade
or a century
when I waited outside in the rain
the hot sun pouring down
mosquitoes eating up my legs

waiting for the bus
I wish I could step on
        one more time
take me home
I know you will

overworking myself
no one notices it at all

I hate the way my back hurts
so much when I lay down I can't rest anymore

my nails are soft
my lips are bleeding

all this money
wish I could buy myself some love

I hate waiting for tomorrow
all I want is what I had yesterday

it's late
I want to cry for a bit
then fall asleep

I want to make a wise choice
a small wish I know will come true

Look away
it's a beautiful night
the stars are coming alive
such a beautiful sky

I'm the wind
you can't escape

Living in a dream world
when I wake up
life feels like hell

how beautiful
this city welcomed me

I don't believe I'm here
I hope I wake up soon

I'm scared
I'll return to my home
filled with pain


where am I now
I've awakened

I know you resent me
it feels too good
this distance
it's what I always wanted

trouble waking up
my dream of living in the city
is waiting for me in a reality I know

I'm missing your words today
I miss your presence too

touch me
like the way I am
broken

speak
only the things
I want to see

peel off your skin
I want to see under
the layers

I'm dancing in this heat
will you come
and pull me closer

tell me no
I hear your footsteps
closer
pull me down

where no one can see us
how will I forget the image of your skin
mold it against mine

we sweat
we laugh
we shiver

hold me
I'll promise you the world
I speak
everything you want to see

we can grow our hair
I could paint your nails
I'll use your shirts
you can wear mine too
I'll comb your hair
you could kiss my lips
I just want you to stay
believe me when I say
I'll do anything to see your face
anything to hear your voice
I'll give you that side of the bed
I would wear your cologne if you allow it
do you want to try my perfume
should I wear your socks
will you come by
stay for a little while
stay the night
stay with me today
don't ever leave
I'll do anything


now I know
I'm feeling it

love is so hard

I've got things to say
look away
writing
pens and pencils
don't look in
tear a page
unopened letters
I hate
I've got things to say
forgotten memories
lost melodies
jumping tales
go outside
hide
find the darkest corner
and cry
echo out your sorrows
tell me why
I've got things to say
I will never say

feels like you're on the other side of the moon
digging deeper
tearing myself apart
I've made a mess of myself
look around
no one is home
I caught a curse
I cannot give away
come close the door
standing in the dark
I'm begging you
let it go
let me go
I never reach the other side
crying inside
I'm feeling better the next day
I stay sinking
I learned how to hold my breath
looking around
silence
I know
there's no one looking out for me anymore

I once liked a boy
he killed me
bore me to death

tomorrow you will carry my corpse
I won't say goodbye

When I am angry
I try and take a deep breath


///


It never works
I'm still so angry

you're online

I found a paperclip in my bathroom
strange place I'll never know

it's disheartening
sadly I won't message you anymore

I won't speak to you anytime soon

if this is a mistake
then I'll regret it later
for now I will try

can't say goodbye
confrontation is my weakness

another night I wash my feet in acid
stop myself from walking back to you

ᵂʰᵉⁿ ᵈⁱᵈ ʷᵉ ᵍᵉᵗ ˢᵒ ᵈⁱˢᶜᵒⁿⁿᵉᶜᵗᵉᵈ
ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉᵈ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ᵗʰⁱⁿᵏ ᴵ ˢᵗⁱˡˡ ᵈᵒ
ᵐᵃʸᵇᵉ ⁿᵒᵗ
ᴵ ʷᵒᵘˡᵈⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ
ᵂⁱˡˡ ʷᵉ ᵉᵛᵉʳ ˢᵉᵉ ᵉᵃᶜʰ ᵒᵗʰᵉʳ ᵃᵍᵃⁱⁿ
ᴵ'ᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵃᵐᵉ
ᴵ ᵃᵖᵒˡᵒᵍⁱᶻᵉ
ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵗ ᵐʸ ᵐⁱⁿᵈ

ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ᵗᵒ ˢᵉᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵒⁿᵉ ᵈᵃʸ
ᶜʰᵃⁿᵍᵉᵈ
ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘ'ʳᵉ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵃᵐᵉ

ᴹᵃʸᵇᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ
ᵐᵃʸᵇᵉ
ᵒⁿˡʸ ʸᵒᵘ ᵏⁿᵒʷ

woke up to a thunderstorm

I don't want to ruin it

you're so precious

falling asleep

get a goodnight sleep

you're beautiful

I know

I love how empty you are

so transparent I can see all of you

a failure

I noticed

I pay attention

the more I know

the better

you should have known me
I've always been so lonely

when I don't answer the phone
so lonely

when I take too many showers in a day
crying tears mixed with water falling on my head

what should have I done

I've told you all the things I've done

nothing ever changed


so I became so lonely
lonely

I'll never be someone else

so lonely
so lonely


you should've known

can I see the moon again
or
should I see the stars today

I just want to take them home
with me

and put one on the ceiling

I'm too greedy
taking your love for granted

I use you to feel better
about myself

can I have the moon
and put it outside
for me

I just want the sky for me

not for anyone else

killed myself
softly
killing myself
softly

I'll never free myself from this world

no matter how many times I **** me

I come back
breathing in the soil
burns
my skin
grey
I feel grey

I'm sorry
I'm sorry

I'm killing myself
I killed myself
I'll **** myself

softly
so softly
I won't explore
you won't listen
I can't recognize
you will breathe

cold feet
selling cars
plates of food I'll never eat

I wish we were friends
I wish we were friends
I wish we were friends

wake up wake up
you don't know me
I try and grow up
but I often dream you know my name

I wish we were friends
we could drive out to the city
you could feed me all the things you love
I could wait for you in the mornings and night

I'm trying to grow up
I'm trying not to hurt myself
but I will if I have to

I know I'm being lied to
I don't want to fight it
but I have to

I wish we were friends
I wish we were friends
I wish we were friends

waking up
another day
you don't know of my existence

sent you a message
you didn't respond

I've noticed lately
we don't talk the same
you're different
am I to blame
I wonder
what I've done wrong
I can overthink for hours
still I'll make sure it's your fault

lately
we're so distant
so different
I can't remember when
you were so close
I felt everything for you

it's sad
it's blue

do you even care
we fell apart slowly
catch all the pieces falling

you give me nothing
I can't trust you

feeling so incomplete
tell me
I'm wrong

can we save this
I cut our strings

bring me back
it hurts to look

come change my mind

change my mind

tell me I'm wrong

twist my broken words
in the dark

fell asleep
where were you

not too long
before I give up too

I can't do this

change my mind

it's heavy
trying so hard

what do you want

tell me this isn't temporary

love

where do you go

Staring off into space
She's not okay
It's okay

Everyone is telling her she's lazy
So she hides away

From the feelings
kept inside

Didn't finish that one show on time

The earth feels like its heating up
and we'll all die

Secrets are just pretty lies
and I give them away to the ones
who aren't suppose to say

She calls me three times a day
but I only ever answer
to hang up right away

Talk away about your day
and how your perfect job
kills your brain

I'm sure you're not interested to
hear about my day

I'm waiting outside
when everyone is inside

Can I fight off the evil feelings
can I reach the sky
become Infinite

I'm only ever myself online
so I might become a virus
to **** off my mind

She lingers in my brain
I hope she's doing okay

boys are so easy
take it or leave it kinda thing
he says she's pretty so she'll fall to her knees
but she craves the taste of power
she hates her ribs
Adam was a liar
she was looking for power
boys are easy
sensitive beings
they fall easily
submit
they all submit to their greatest desires
fall of man
savor it
sin

no not today
not tomorrow
maybe someday
or never again

And I am broken again
Because you
Ignored me today
What did I do wrong
I never stopped
Knocking on
You hard built walls
Did I knock down one?
And when everyone is gone
You stare at me
Like you have nobody
It's not helping
Seeing you
Behind
When I could have helped
The whole time

I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶  I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                                  I­̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶  h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶  y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                                   ­        I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶  y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶          I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶       I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶ r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
               I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶  I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
        I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
   I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶  h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶                                    I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
         I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                                   ­                             I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
               I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                     I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
    I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶  I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶  r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶  l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶  e̶r̶
̶       I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶         ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                 I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶     I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶   r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶  d̶e̶r̶
          


                                    ­               ᵤntᵢl my
lₑgs bᵣₑₐk

          bₑfₒᵣₑ my ₑyₑs clₒsₑ

                                                      
                                                                ­                      blₑₑdᵢng nₒsₑ

            until
             I break myself
                 for trying my hardest

is that the truth

when times are rough
I pull you up

I comfort you
out of sympathy

I can't feel anything for you

you pushed me down
you always get my hopes high

lie to me
that's all you ever do for me

you're that bad influence
the hidden poison

I'll never know
if it's the truth

In the beginning
You made me so happy
but now all I'm feeling is sadness

I'm sad
I ever met you

Now all I feel is blue

When we first met
The sky was red

In the end
You became
what makes me sad