mumu - Hello Poetry

mumu Dec 2021

23rd

It's my 23rd year
   Sure time flies so fast,
It all happened,
   In a blink of an eye
But, 23 is sure different
  Growth is still there,
But I learned to let go
  Of the toxics in life –
Of the things that makes me unhealthy
   I learned to let go,
I learned to move on
But no worries,
    No heartaches
No regrets
   And, I am still in the path I chose
But this time,
   With a different surroundings
More challenging
  Still haven't slept properly
But, I have taken my rest
Then I let go, move on
And grow

Thank you, year 23

See you again after my 24th

#birthday

mumu Nov 2021

Too

I am too happy
        to write a poem,
Words can't describe my feelings

I am too busy
         to write a poem,
Crumpled paper on the floor

I am too sad
         to write a poem,
My mind is not here

I am unmotivated
        to write a poem,
I need motivation

I have too many excuses
          why I cannot write anymore,
but I want to, i just cant

hello there! i missed you all. Happy Thanksgiving! I hope that u are having a great day

#write #poetry

mumu Nov 2020

...

they made you of
the things they fed you
you choose
NO
they made you choose
from the options
they provide
and they think
they build you up
NO
you build you
from the limited options
you build you
and you keep on building
until they expand your option
until you get your own opinion
you. build. you

mumu Oct 2020

thoughts 💭

have you killed yourself
in your mind
for once
is it normal?
or maybe isn't
i killed myself
everyday
at the exact time
i hang myself
at the same place of this house
in my mind
to make me sleep
to fall asleep
it's not normal
isn't?

wishing you be safe, always

mumu Aug 2020

Empty Thoughts

2:14 in the morning
Haven't slept for three days
My eyes are heavy
My thoughts are crazy
Regrets
Mistakes
Judgments
Happy moments
Sad ones
Things I wish I did
Things I don't know why I did
My eyes are heavy
I need my thoughts to be empty
Then
I touched myself down there
It's wet
I keep on caressing
Like someone was touching
And I know I'm almost there
Until I see myself
Hanging on the ceiling
On the rest room
On the kitchen
But I'm almost there
Until I see blood
In my head
In my wrist
A slit on my neck
And my eyes are heavy
And I'm almost there
The next thing I know
It's 2:14 in the morning
The next day after.

#suicide #*******

mumu May 2020

Better Than Cure

Today is a normal day
Just like yesterday
It's sunny
All colors are flashing
But, nothing strikes at me
Just like yesterday
The feeling is the same
Boring
Lifeless

I've been sick for so long
It's inside, you know
There is a hollow
I am trying to patch
They say cry for help
And there is
But no one will understand
Will you understand?
If I choose Z
From my A-Z plan
Will you understand?

Today is a normal day
Just like yesterday
But, today will be different
Still boring
And then
Lifeless

I've been thinking, if someone wanted to commit suicide, let them. It is something that they have think of, that they have chosen from the choices they have. Let them die if they want. And you are not accountable for the loss, neither them.

I'm not promoting suicide, I'm not also telling you to do it, but out of all the choice you have, why will you choose it?

#suicide

mumu Apr 2020

how to say...

Patawad
bàoqiàn
Lo siento
gomen nasai
Pardon
Es tut uns leid
joesonghamnida
Syngnōmēn ékhe
Prosti!
Sorry

For the suicidal thoughts again
Self, hang in there.

Lately, I'm having my suicidal thoughts again, without any triggers. This lockdown is giving me so much anxiety. I hope this already ends as well the pandemic may have the cure.
Take care everyone