I stand in front of the mirror in the bathroom
As I wash my hands, when a girl enters
I glance a her and smile and when I look back
In the mirror I stare at myself and think
*I wish I was as pretty as her

My love for you**
Is greater than any love
There is

I** like to
Make believe  of
A world so magical
Gracious and beautiful
It exist
No matter where, just
A world
That
I can escape to, somewhere
Over the rainbow, somewhere
No one knows exist

Listen and
I** will tell you
Excellent things and make you believe
Some of it was true

Sometimes I hate living
Not because I hate my life
Sometimes I can't stand to live another day
Not because I rather die
Sometimes I wonder if I would be better off dead
Not because I want my life to end
Im just tired of living
Tired of being dead

Darkness is full of surprises
Many are hiden by her
As she takes who she wants
She leaves them with froad
But she cant fool me
Im the only who can take her strength
As she tries and tries
I never fright because
She will never succed
I am light

I walked around
In whatever,
Shorts, mini skirts
I wasn't afraid of my scars
But only because
They didn't show
But when I was
Naked in front
Of you I
Felt ashamed
Because it was then
All my scars were
**Revealed

It's amazing how something
So beautiful can be
So painful
How something
That is used to express love
Expresses hate
Maybe we should all be
Mute and Deaf
So we don't ever have to
Experience the pain words can bring

I hate goodbyes
They always seem like forevers
I hate goodbyes
They always seem so depressing
I don't like the idea of letting go
Maybe it because it feels like
Giving up and
That's not exacally my thing

HOW MUCH
TIMES DO I
HAVE TO SAY
IM SORRY ?

To many bad days
Enormous wet stains
All because of you, let's
Restart and pretend we never
S**tarted

I believe in love**
Even when love is silent

I wish I
Could
Have made
You
Happy.
As happy as
You need to
Be to be
With Me.

If I say
I Love You
Please say it
Back

Life seems so odd
Because for the first time
In forever I'm happy
For the first time in a while
I can smile with liberty
I'm finally who I want be be
I'm finally **HAPPY

I fake a smile and carry on with my day
No one questions me not even a bit
No one asks me if I'm alright because
They assume my smile says it all
But when they ask I say 'I'm fine' and
Move on with my day
I'm always relieved there are no follow up questions
But there are times I wish there were
There are times I wish someone cared enough
To know the real me
Not the happy girl everyone sees
No more like **the broken girl I really am

One day I love you
The next I don't
But somehow you make me fall
But my balance is better
And I don't want to fall again
At least not in your hands
But maybe in someone elses

We've been through a lot
But no matter what you
Will always be my Dad
And me,
Your little girl
All my fears disappear
Because well you take
Them away
So Happy Father's Day
To you because your
A father better than
Any other
Thank you for my
Smiles and Laughs
You've made them

Why is it that you can't look
Me in the eyes when you say
I Love You ?
Why is it that you don't kiss
Me as passionately as before ?
Do you not love
Me like before ?
Do you not long
For my kisses ?
Are you no longer
In Love
Because when I kiss you
I no longer am .
And when I say those three words,
I Love You
I no longer mean it

Each tear I shed tonight is a
Memory
So if I shed a thousand tonight
That's a thousand
Memories
I spent with you

But if I shed none it's because the
Memories
Of you and I no longer exist
Well not in my head
But forever in my heart

Every chance I get
To be freed
I fall yet again in your trap
I'll Change. I promise !
Isn't that what you would say
Each time with a different excuse
But the blame isn't all on you
Because I was
Dumb enough to take you back
Dumb enough to want it to work
Dumb enough to believe you
Lie after lie
Stupid me,
**I guess …