Perfection was never an achievement,
it was always a goal.

Native in the hearts of your children you are.
Embedded deeply in their soil, spawning fertile seeds only to bid farewell too soon.
Your roots firmly rooted,
solidifying your solid stance. Imprinted your features in all of us, all just sketches of the you you used to be.
They tell tales of an antique casanova who once was,
a man who loved dearly for an eternity that lasted a few heartbeats.
I used to draw you in the margins of my notepad,
pretending I remembered more than your smile.
But I was fond of the man who took part in my creation,
the man whose name I carry with pride,
the man who gave me a family,
the man my mother fell for.
Words I never uttered come close to mind,
I'd mean them if I said them out loud.
But here, among bent, wilting trees you lay, forever.
We're standing on the ground reserved for souls bygone, transfusing memories of you in one beautiful picture.


We love you,
I love you


Here's to you, father.

**18/02/1961--01/10/2009

you can dance around here all night
nobody will stop you;
we are lucky here;
the world is very small

Even while I hurt, I know that you are in control.
Even after I mess up, I know that you are in control.
Even while I am alone, living with loneliness.
I know that you are still in control of my life here.
Nothing happens that surprises you, for you know everything.
Nothing catches you off guard, for you are the Perfect God.
Thus I shall bow down to you and worship you God.

I may fall upon my face, but at those time I shall turn it around to worship you.
For when I mess up , I want you to turn it around for your Glory only.
Cause you deserve all of the Praise, for when I fall upon my face.
For only you are worthy, you lead me from the darkness into the Light.
You save when even I gave up on myself, I am so unworthy God of my Heart.
If it was not for you I would be rotting in h3ll right at this very moment.
I did not deserve it but you gave me another chance to live anyway Lord.
Throughout all of my tears falling like water falls yet here I stand.
Not because I deserve it but because you love me so very much God.