I miss your voice the most.
it brought me this indescribable happiness,
so pure, so honest.

Please Forgive Me
I Forgive You
I Love You
Thank You
Goodbye

We are told to say this to a dying loved one.
Its been burned in my mind.

Please Forgive Me
I Forgive You
I Love You
Thank You
Goodbye

I gave you my heart, my soul,
my body and my mind.
You gave me hope, love,
completion and purpose.

Please Forgive Me
I Forgive You
I Love You
Thank You
Goodbye

For the first time in my life I couldn't
wait to go to sleep once I got home,
not because i was lazy
or due to lack of sleep.
Something wonderful and amazing happened to me.

I didn't have to hide in my mind,
dreams couldn't, wouldn't, compare to reality.

I was exited to be alive,
every morning id leap out of bed and whisper your name under my breath.

Please Forgive Me
I Forgive You
I Love You
Thank You
Goodbye

I've lost everyone, and everything
that meant something to me.
I'm getting closer to death.

Please Forgive Me
I Forgive You
I Love You
Thank You
Goodbye.
I hope to see you soon.

Ive joined dateing sites,
Ive seen hundereds of females of all size and shape, national origin, skin colour, and beliefs.
Swipe
Swipe
Swipe
Messege after messege,
hellos and goodbyes.
Swipe
Swipe
Swipe
I look at each face and stare into their eyes and think to myself,
"will she make me happy?
Swipe
Swipe
Swipe

Stop.

My heart begins to desend to the lowest viod in my soul.

Its you.
Its been months since ive seen you,
My heart can not take it anymore.
We live in the same city,
No more than a few blocks away.
You were my world, and now youre gone.

But you're right here,
Behind this tiny screen.
The closest ive been in a while.

As i read your bio,
whatever that is left of my heart that still remains in my chest, slowly crumbles into dust word after word.
I feel as it floats away in the dark emptiness of my mind.

You look happy.

Its when i wake up cold and afraid,
When i have a bad dream and i lay there hopeless,
When i look at the empty chair across the table as i eat in the morning,
When i come home tired from work and all the lights are off,
When i eat a luke warm tv dinner watching Family Feud,
When i  drive around at night to clear my mind and reatching to my right to find nothing there.

I hate being alone.