Sometimes I feel like breathing is my worst habit

Sometimes my reflection sighs for stability and this skin doesn't make sense

But life is to ridiculous for a short cut

Best to take the long way and dodge nonsense with a smile

These moments come with no invitation but I find peace in madness

Insanity is purity walking a fine line
I'm sure most would disagree

Brain chemistry is animalistic in origin  and I find beauty in it's chaos

Life's momentum shapes perception and I do what I can for navigation

We fall into each other in rapid succession craving warmth and reason

After a time we break away numb and confused denouncing all emotion

Still

Humor is all I find on these days  worlds collide

Stagnant crowds terrify me

No escape routes make me primitive

Existing for the sake of ground work makes me sickly and despondent

Writing soup filled stanzas is the only tool I have for peace

Tree top excursions
Suggest dusk has finally come
Home comfort calling
But I misplaced my time

Make my way slowly
City lights grow distinct
Narrow paths for crossing
Rub shoulders with shadows
Acknowledge their presence
Ignore their motivation

The innocent seem so sinister
When the day succumbs to night

A distant figure flickers
Caught by cherry smoke
Coat tails scrape for escape
Urgency in the footsteps
Jay walk for comfort
Not knowing its danger

Chain link detour
Concrete echoes confrontation
Violence shatters my silence
Sounds of hate
Sounds of sadness
Observe a conclusion
A crumbled life line
A spent conscious  
No breath left for lifting

Statue stiff for survivals sake
Hoping for a hurried perception

There is no vanity in desperation

Voices cry from a cold hollow
Asking my place in all this
I say do not fear
For it is only momentary

You broke the mold in two
and time came for you
No time for strife
or a vengeful right
Gravity on the move

A black hole for you
go ahead
blind your gloom
pick another day
but you'll stay away
you know it's true

You made it out to soon
concrete for your tomb
But you left this space
full of cold and gray
I can still feel you

An act of kindness for a frown
see a body gasp in disbelief
A distant image so profound
I put it in a jar with my sleep

Now the time comes back around
asking me what I need for my release

Now the time makes no sound
knowing there is no reprieve

I suppose I could use this sign
to make a foundation without a leak

I suppose I could create a crime
that makes the last one seem so bleak

Instead I'll just stand next to this lie
and ask it to finally come clean

Instead I'll compromise for the sake of my growing grief

An old man fell victim to pacification
I still see him laying there
body twisted and spent

I remember thinking how undignified he looked

How undignified we all look
when an abrupt transition to violence consumes us

Hysteria in the masses leads to now
leads to whirl winds
leads to fear and pointless chaos

Then we are left with nothing but a burnt out shell
As fragments of are carefully contrived realities begin to crumble

The worst part?

We stand there in the aftermath beat down to indifference asking how did this happen?

Reach for the mirror

It appears the fatalist has won the day

What way is that to live?

"Are you even listening?''

Window perception
Eyes on the horizon
Sunburst chaos
Tin foil clouds
Hang them by a string

''There's something seriously wrong with you''

An abrupt intrusion
Sky high demon
Make the mark
Make the grade
Conspiring a tragedy
No salvation here

''I think he checked out''

A stop on the way
A vacant mind for exploring
Touch the walls
Monstrous obstruction
Tiptoe around it

''But look he's still here''

Weary eyes on the dial
Point them true
Jaw breaks free
Voice box on the move

''What did he say?''

Explain my affliction
Explain my condition
Reconstructed logic
Reasonable madness

''He's speaking nonsense''

Sighs for the lifetime
Sighs for this timeline
Silence for these strangers
Keeping this reality