I found a broken home from childhood

The frame whispers of an hysterical upbringing

Confused and uncertain it begs for a knowing conclusion

This sagging structure holds no solutions for these moments so familiar

I shrug it off

Because life is never a steady ride when you grow up dodging hysterics

Made a pass at the old swing set now rusted into earth

I realised times indifference and could only laugh

Hoping for a clue from heaven I looked up for an answer

Never was much up there for comfort

Only sun and stars manipulated by a cities progression

A chemical backdrop for this sunset
A slow ride for this moment
No crime in a wasted reason
If it's roots grow from conflict

Words echoed through concrete ruins say nuclear logic for the masses

Cold steel reaching for the sky
says I decline this invitation

Construct a new world
One that spins rationally
With fluid motions of peace
for this perpetual madness

On my good days

I believe there is a purpose for this construction

Some sort of entity that makes these moves seem rational

Some sort of reason for this unrelenting creation

On my bad days

I realise that we are all just molecules left in limbo
falling into each other
with reckless grace

I fear we stumbled upon the notion of free will

A god we were not meant to know or fully understand

You no longer seem capable
of making sense out of the shapes that once contained your salvation

This mind shows signs of worn connections and missed plot lines

No longer holding up underneath
it's own contorted logic

This body shows signs of chemical fatigue and a disposition suggesting insanity
Breathing easy
So natural is it's position

You could not maintain that mask even in your most guarded circles

It slipped down revealing overwhelming creations all to familiar

These eyes show signs of cancellation

Reflecting off a stagnant pool inside this void you built up around yourself

Understand
You are the contraption that made this body breathe and scream sighs of relief

Understand
There are no words for this knowing destruction and it's tenacious momentum

Understand
I will gladly take the fall for a world you never wanted or intended if it means you find peace