It hurts that I can't hold you,
Tightly
Caressingly
lovingly

you can't love me because you're head over heels for other girls
who aren't me
never will be me
you'll never love me

I love you, you don't know that though
lets keep it that way
so when I cry myself to sleep
I know I won't hold you accountable
in my dreams

Honestly, I was happy we danced
But since you gave me that chance
You've barely given me a glance
Always looking down like somethings on your pants
In fact you don't even look at me
You may not know it
but it's shaken me
****, we've changed a lot haven't we?
You were so innocent
Those butterflies were flying
Now your flowers are wilting and dying
Or so I've heard from them; they're lying
They must be
Right?
What I wrote is wrong
Right?
It's an over-reaction
Right?

Thinking back to Jealousy
I'm sorry
I was upset about all you said to me
You said you loved me still
Then you said it couldn't be
You loved me still
Still couldn't be
It's emotionally
devastating
I opened up and got shut down
Almost three years and I still frown
Now when I see you I must look around
But I'm just doing as you asked
You tell me to let go of the past
And I have
You just gave me a great reason to look back
and even better reason to look forward

Seriously stop spreading rumors
Even though the truth hurts
Lies hurt more
Couldn't you come up with something better than
*****?
We know you call her that
Behind her back
So you can stop this little kids act
You call her names even though she's a ******
Causing her misery won't stop you from hurting
I'm preaching this lesson, because you refuse to learn it

That boy is warm freshly printed papers
Stuffed in his overflowing binder
That boy is the leaves being painted
In early November

That boy is Pokémon cards skewed all over the floor
Who never signed up for this 'growing up' thing
That boy is a huge stuffed frog on Valentine's
Lessening the winter's violent sting

That boy is obscure facts of the arcane
A curiosity never satisfied  
That boy has an ever expanding brain
And long hands that reek of formaldehyde

That boy is beautiful freckles
"Splotches of melanin" as he puts it
That boy is compliments I don't deserve
And a love I just can't quit

That boy is a long way down
A relationship that's nowhere close to flawless
That boy is worth the fall because that boy
Is my dear Nicholas