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The thing about pets is
They cost you money
They eat sleep and shower for free
They have no job except pleasing the master
They don't contribute to the finances whatsoever
But wearing collars pasties and bells makes you cute as hell
And you were very clever...
I know pets are a responsibility..
I have changed my mind and set you free
Though I have tried to make you flee
I cannot get rid of you that easily
Being a pet owner of that type is not for me
I am not letting any man live free off of me ; )
The place is a meadow. Warm sunshine and a light breeze blowing. A young girl, graceful and free spirited. She is laughing and dancing her way through the soft grasses. She is dressed in a light airy dress; it blows in the wind. A ring of flowers in her flowing hair, little golden locks bouncing, rays of the friendly sun reflecting off of her. I hear her calling to me "Take my hand" in her small but very strong voice. She is light and unburdened. Her spirit so willing to extend and trust, the honesty and love of the soul shining through.

I know this child, the free love, and the trusting soul. This girl has been through more hurt and shame, more than enough to fill a town. She lives in the absolute now, protected and safe.

It was I who brought her to this meadow. She was lost in the dark forest for years. Each step of the way out we took together, walking the fear together. Each step through the forest so dark the fireflies along the way lighting up just enough for us to find the wildflowers. We gathered the flowers along the path of fear. We collected the beauty from the darkness and placed it on her head. The ring of wildflowers was our gift from the darkness.

She dances freely, light and unburdened. She has a pure soul, free to love. I saved her; I held her hand at every thought.

Now she returns to free me and hold my hand. A love that is counted on more than any other love could ever obtain. I am never blind to her. I carry her always. I give her everything she has never had.

I am that child.
The energy expands
Every sound vibrates
The energy of buzzing bees
I whisper BB and feel the wave
Calling to you-no phone needed
Our connection blessed
As nothing that has proceeded
Glad I was ready for the energy of You
Such powerful stuff
This energy string
Wired together
I feel everything
If you whisper KC
I will feel your ping
Stronger than ever
Buzzy BB sting
I am zapped, tapped and wrapped
On a vibrational swing
Whispering BB
My energy sings
The sounds of want
Little whimpers
Sighs with shivers
breath with sound
enter submission
giving into desire
sounds on fire
I heard them last night in my sleep
Been so long in a waking state
I thought the sounds that I had made
would never return, no trance state
I missed giving in ..I missed those sounds
For so long they have not been around!
I heard them last night in my sleep...
You woke them up in me
This giggle is going to give me away
I woke up so wonderfilled today
Notifications pages long
Texts that are practically a song
This giggle of mine is going to give me away
I am smiling so much today
All because your words lit my day
Dare I show such a joy using words as my toy?
I see the phone light up and yell YAY!! oh boy!
It is time for a poetry jam all day long
Lets rock some words into a song
I will bounce words off you
Go with it, stick to the jam like glue
Thoughts of you blow in the breeze
Gusts, sometimes silent, often soft breezes
I fly on wild windy thoughts of you
Then the wind changes directions without a cue
Makes me wonder why I choose to fly upon thoughts of you
The way you feel changes often and I have no reason to
Attach myself in any way to thoughts of you for smiles
or to relax my health
I shake my head and wonder why I do this
My answer is usually thoughts of you help me get through all this~
I have no right to think of you in such ways
But honestly thoughts of you in bliss gets me through my days
To The MOTH
It does not matter what I think
It does not matter what I feel
The choice is always someone else's to make
This land I live in makes no sense
So I must vacate
I am done playing games
Being third string
Set on the sidelines
Waiting to be called in
This game is over

I am moving on
To the land of Karen
Where everything is calm
Where what I think
Dictates my day
And what I feel leads my way
I am so excited
I sigh a silent cheer
My new life is already here
; )
TO
TO
I want to run
TO
watch you play
TO
see you enjoy the waves
TO
snap your photo when you do not know I am around
TO watch you be YOU

That is what I want to witness
Just to watch you be you
It is hard for me to just sit here
Knowing where your at
I want to pounce
Like one of your cats


I want to run TO
Shakes head
There is something about you..
There are people in this world who only show up on your door step after they have used and abused everyone they know or could possibly get to know.  They steal for drugs.  They think nothing of what they do to others.

Earlier: Purple hair a flame SHE LUNGES AND GROWLS AT HER OTT and he loves seeing her strong and BRAVE FIERCE and UNAFRAID.  She lunges at him with PASSION.  
She thinks she is a mess.  He responds. "No, mess. Beautiful anarchy. Beautiful energy."
She Lunges at him again tells Him to Rest.  Quickly shuts off her camera.  She is feeling powerful.  He smiles..she knows it feels it and moves on in her day.......

TEXT MESSAGES FROM THIN THIN LADY I DO NOT KNOW..OR DO I?
My Ex's child fills my facebook and phone with texts.  She calls she begs..but we checked all the police reports and warrents and they are far worse than she told me.  LAST NIGHT KNOCKS AT THE DOOR..ignore ignore.  Yes I know who it is.
I recall lunging at him and being so strong.  ****** at my door got a lunge and more.  I snapped..I roared.  I SET HER ON IGNORE.  I have been there for everyone all the time..I take care of who is MINE.  I cared for his 6 other children when he had their entire LIFE ON IGNORE.  I tired to set her straight.  I tried tender loving Karen First.  I tried but I cannot give my happiness away and risk everything for someone who continues to steal and rob and fraud.  I will not do it..I do NOT CHOOSE IT..it is NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY.  I am MINE.  You are yours.  I will never choose you over mine, me, kind.  Negativity not longer has a place.  MY SPACE is a HAPPY PLACE.  I remain SEATED IN THE SEAT OF THE SOUL..BALANCED..TRUE TO MYSELF THROUGH AND THROUGH.  I FEEL NO GUILT FOR YOU.  I FEEL NOTHING BUT EQUALITY AND NEUTRALITY & Grace..I am a LADY BUT I WILL BITE YOUR FACE
To dance with a flying pink spread to each side
Organic super spun my threads
Gathers open with each leg flair
Around the round I spin
PINK smooth and silky sheer
Teasing with such movement and play
Offering a unique sway
Gushing with delight
Aroused leaping up and down
PINK dances in sync
Technician across this super waxed floor
Originate a new dance -move it new
Generate your own play - be you
Against the grain in nothing new
PINK saves me once more
I never thought there could be enough
In fact there can be too ******* much
So much the smell in the air makes one lose touch
The sense of nappiness hits us like country road dust
Lay down if you must
We understand the smell is strong enough for a bust
but it is legal here so no fuss
**** overkill..what happen to the mega thrill?
Maybe I smoked too much and simply oh so chilled
The stink of **** is always in the air
Inhale it if you dare..
I never thought I would say this but..there is just too much ****
The smell is making me feel sick..
I never made so much butter quick
I get all dizzy and nauseous?
But this is my favorite thing..now its all work and not a casual fling
When I smoke now I am cautious
I say man..there is just too much **** ; )
Twisting things and it don't feel yummy
I have a topsy turning tummy
Anxiety and it feels funny
But what I have to deal with is all serious
For real I have to go deal with these issues
Be strong get it done
Forgo any tissues
Just go do that **** that makes me spin
Deal with the issues that make me wince
I have a topsy turning tummy but not for long
I am gonna adapt and over come
Be strong
Giant merry go round
Greek food
My choice of movies
Good attitude!
Great manners
Funny wit
The right type of herbs
lets smoke that ****!
7 foot Zombie with size 18 foot
Your fun and make me smile and order me healthy food
You check the reviews before taking me anywhere
Your not scared of my pink hair ; )
I like the way you show you care
So keep on growing your green children
I am turning into one of them
If I smoke any more I will grow a stem
; )
5/6/00 3:49 PM
I am transcribing this mornings’ writings.
It is 11 a.m. I have been naked all day.  So many windows to look through, both physically and in the mind.  
I have been near silent the whole time I have been in this house.  I find it so strangely familiar here.  It fits; it all fits in the mysterious cosmic way I have yet to discover.
*I am a person who visits ‘his house when he is on trips.  And here I find myself on a trip or two indeedy.  The house, thought 1, I love his style.
It makes me think of what I want for myself.  There is fantasy and reality to indulge in here.
Reality is the space and freedom.  Space for all things special and ordinary.  I miss space and order.  He has all the thought provoking areas of interest of a real home.  The colors are rich, deep blue, burgundy, and browns, all used in an artful mix of styles.  Oddly pondering here because I would choose many of the same pieces myself.  Every room has space for dancing, which I have done naked a few times here now.
Everyone else is watching big screen movies.  I am in the other living room on a big brown leather couch; still naked, touching all of ‘his things with my body.  
I awoke this morning to the sound of the modem.  I swear it is the perfect alarm clock for me!  You know I get excited every time I here the perfect connection.  
My dreams were vivid awake and asleep because ‘he is on a trip and I am sleeping naked in the master bedroom.  There is the possibility he could have come home at anytime.  I had spent 6 hours already that night naked in his home without his knowledge.  Everyone is used to me being naked when we come stay here.  I don’t want to put clothes on here, in this house.
It is not the people around seeing me naked in the yard sunbathing, or running around the big house with big windows which have no coverings btw.
It is the space and atmosphere that draws out my facets.  This space sparks my exhibitionist in a feisty way. * All the ***** massages for me to relax and enjoy, just being papered to highs. *  
The white leather couch and a 60-inch screen for movies- others are sitting in the chairs and on the floor.
One joins me on the sofa.  Everyone is watching a movie, so am I when my eyes are open.  I am on the couch on my stomach, with a pillow under my hips and my head.  My legs spread wide, there I am being touched inside and out constantly.  I moan, open my eyes and see the many eyes on me and the ’s.  I close my eyes and smile and say “watch the movie you guys geez”, giggle, wiggle and moan again.  The surround sound covers some of my whimpers.  
As soon as the movie was over I walked to the master bedroom and turned on the light.  HIS clothes, files, and suitcases were still on the bed.  WoW he really could come home.  I wanted that bed!
-We- cleared the bed and I jumped in the middle and put ‘his pillow under my ***.  I don’t know ‘him, but I love his style and I wanted to *** on his bed and pillows.  The fact that I come here and stay naked all over his things excites me, and he has no idea.  And yes, I came all over the master bed, we ****** madly!  I know the others heard my bells and chains clinking at a feverish pace.  I listened to the sounds ‘his bed made.  I fully enjoyed his headboard, grabbing his oak poles, feeling each one up and down, as I was getting closer to coming.  Ahhh my hand finds a broken bar, I think how it must have been broken by ‘him doing what I was at that moment.  That moment I came.
My mind was so in this “space”, that after we were spent I jumped up and ran to the pool.  Everyone else was still wake and followed me outside.  Skinny-dipping after hours of pleasure is the best recovery!  Wooo Hooo!  
I was the only one naked – still, I didn’t mind and neither did anyone else.  They were announcing to me when the pool jets came on, giggles, they wanted me sitting on them.  A wind picked up and I went inside, everyone followed me in.  
We all watched Eyes Wide Shut, and then everyone went to his or her separate rooms.  
I took ‘his room, I love the big space, the many doors and windows all left open, so nice and free.  I stood beside ‘his bed and slowly dropped my chains and bells beside his slippers on the floor.  I sprawled about on his sheet and fell into a light sleep.
I was dreaming that there was a camera taking pictures of me, while I was replaying in my dream the real conversation I had with ‘him the night before.  He was asleep on the phone, I called and he never fully woke up to give my message to his roommate.  I listened to him breath, and I spoke quietly to him, softly and sweetly, he spoke back a few times and then I hung up.  But in the dream I was having it was *******, and I was talking in my sleep, in ‘his bed.  What a twist of cosmic ways.  With all the dreams: of the snap shots and the discovery of me in his bed, ****, alone and moaning **** me.   In my dream I was saying it, and I know the other people in the other rooms could hear me speaking my mind in my sleep.  The rooms are close by indeed.
Awoke by the modem with 5 hours of sleep, I was stiff bodied, yet excited to wake up in ‘his bed.  It was 8:30 a.m. I rolled over and moaned loud enough to draw attention to myself, knowing it would work .
I kept my eyes closed and softly said how sore my ribs and back were.  The hands of the night before returned to rub my body once again.  After a few minutes of morning massage, I smiled, giggled and rolled off the bed and darted to the pool.
Naked morning sunshine, I love it, jump in the pool and by the time I got fully wet the coffee came to me.  Everyone was eating breakfast poolside while I skinny-dipped my body into a limber state.  After breakfast everyone jumped in the pool with me, but I was the only one naked.  We all swam for 30 minutes or so.  I spotted the lounge chair and decided to sunbathe Seconds after my body reclined, the hands and oil came to pamper me once again.  I was spread out in full view of all in the pool, getting slicked up al over, with oil and such.  It felt great inside and out, I didn’t care that everyone was watching me get my ***** satisfied.  I was vividly aware of where I was, out in the open space and the freedom of space, as I thought my *** rose in the air and my body twitched repeatedly.  I heard the voices in the pool, and felt the sun on me as I came hard, right there in front of everyone.  Hell, I needed help getting up off that chair, and an oiled hand took mine, and led me to the master bedroom.
The master’s bed now has oil on the sheets and the headboard, and the wall.  I left myself all over his things.  He will know some of my essence whether he knows it or not, I will.  Here I sit naked in his den loving every naked minute of it.
I am back from being oil girl.  Being bent over people spreading glistening oil on nakedness, my *** got a lil bit to much sun!  I go to the master bedroom again, everyone is still poolside.  I try on things, because they are left out on the bed.  You know how I always ask what a mans' favorite pair of pants are?  Well there was 501’s in my size, I couldn’t resist sliding him on me, loving how they fit my ***.  I went back outside and paraded around showing how good ‘his pants fit me.  “Do you have underwear on?” I was asked, I laughed and said no.  I got an odd look from the people.  I danced off to the bedroom and put them back, knowing how he fit was enough.
Right now I am sitting outside writing and a camera is pointed right at my *****.  So I shall stand up for a few shots.  I got up and stood on the table and spread for some close ups, ****, ok enough sun, my **** are red.
After delivering a few drinks poolside, I return to ‘his bed, laying on my belly, thinking, pen in hand.
I hear the shower turn off and I close my legs, I feel the wet drops hit my back, as he sits on my legs.  He is holding them together with his weight.  I feel the oil hit my back, sliding down the crack of my ***.
The lower back massage becomes two bodies sliding against each other.  At first his hands slide between my tightly pressed thighs.  My hips grabbed and lightly lifted, raising my *** in the air, yet tightly holding my legs together.
A breath on my neck touched me at the same time he entered my ***** once again.  My pen never left my hand.  I was focused.
I go for a smoke and jump back into the pool, knowing its time for me to leave soon.  As I enter the main room, in just *******, I pick up my lotion and start putting it on my arms.  Hands from behind gently take the lotion and begin putting it on my sunburned back.  I defiantly feel the fact that I have ******* on as the hands reach my lower back and slowly pull them off……
This was my first husbands last attempt to keep me as his wife by taking me on a weekend to his friends house with a pool.
The story is very telling that my mind is truly not on present, but on what is not there. By saying this I almost ruin the erotica of it..but the psychology of the the story is rich too..
I wrote that day and the next paragraph by paragraph, each hour or so.
Who else was present is everyone who always saw me naked and saw it as no big deal. I was a nudist, they knew it. Its all very true...
We trip because we do not want to break
We scrutinize what we let in
Yet we call ourselves free flowing in the wind
We have wings but hide in cocoons
Were we trip silently like caged baboons
We can fly any time we like
Instead we just trip silently
Demons take flight
Wicked with brooms
Whisking away what had just bloomed
Stealing the good that just happened
Leaving us with a head trip that is snappin
Left to trip silently
Dimples appear when thoughts of you near
Twitches of corners of my mouth come out
Little giggles occur, a sway with the tunes playing
Gentleness hits my chest
I smile
Your the best
Someday soon I will smile all over you
I hope it sticks like glue
; )
For J
A slow ride that first time
Happy town visits always make me smile
Been a few days, for me that is a long while
Lost my car that usually drives me there
I couldn't find it anywhere
So I hitched a ride with Johnny Depp
And again he refused me at almost every step!
Geez I know your taken, no mistaking
but this tension I must be breaking!
You took so long and left me standing cold awaiting
I know your just making me do the chasing!
I cannot thank you enough
so a second time around
I call your bluff!
Drive me there again, do a second take!!
call it..Director Johnny Depp!!!
What a film we could make!
Lick that stuff off my lips
Cause it is no longer within my hips
I smile and declare a second ride
We have film time to spare so lets not lie
Standing with legs together held so tight
that second trip to happy town was more than ******* alright!!!
Hold frame
Twist only hips
Move forward
Maximize radius
Improve flexibility
Burn
Twist the middle
Turn it side to side
Keep those arms solid
Up HIGH
Hold that frame
Do the dance
Reduce the middle
Quite a chance!
The dancing continues with strict amounts of twists with solid frame and moving hips
Two sets
one wet
one dry
I lick one set
the other between my thighs
wetness builds with each breath
awaiting our next
"little death"
I lick my lips
as I think of you
My lower set full of dew
Both sets responding to you
I could use some Chapstick
my smile is dry
no Chapstick around
so I reach between my thighs
I dip in and feel
wetness and want
Bring my hand to my face
and wipe off the dry
I lick my lips once again
I taste you
and it begins again
both sets a wanting
with you driving me insane
all this wetness
is yours to claim
kiss me fool
taste your mess
laugh with me
lay with me
try to rest
later I will tease you
do not protest
wetness in my walk
from hearing you talk
watching my heart beating in my chest
seeing my smile
as I let it go
giggle
sigh
YOU are the BEST!
Relief hits
I buzz
All fixed
Restless gone
Peace beyond
Relief I sigh
No lie
Soulful cry
Relaxed am I
A shell
Magic overcoat of ignorance
Bought on the illusion
Of warmth and solace.
Comfort to my spirit
So I thought.
Once armor to protect
Now captive and chained.
Downward spiral
As gravity pulls me.
Weighting my soul
Hardening my spirit.
No freedom to unburden
My flesh, my shell.
Always hiding the true,
The real, my soul.
Now unmasked from the torture
Of my self made fight.
Freedom comes-
Unburdened and Light!

              Karen
           Copyrighted 1/3/2000
55 miles an hour they drive past us
Deer jump up and out and are now dead
Cross each road with cation animals
I say in my head
I may live in the valley of peace
But we get here on the highway of death
The fast paced world runs beside nature
We collide sometimes, life and death
Meet on the road leading to the valley of all that is sweet
Not all of us make it to the lands away from highway of death
We forget to turn off or take a left
If you do not seek the valley of peace
You are simply stuck on the highway of death
Head falls back with a belly quiver
I feel the mighty energy river
The relaxation of the flow returns
My body and spirit no longer yearns
I settle in the energy that comforts me
A waist high river surrounding me
Wet in wonder whirling round thee
I feel that connection, a connection worth
Head falls back as I laugh
Thought I needed a shower
but thanks for the bath ; )
I swim in it, soak it up
ahhhh at last
I Cant kiss you
I might forget something
not because I don't want to
but because you disrupt my routine*

Nightly I stand there
waiting for a kiss goodnight
Im ready, Im tired
I want to lay down
But i stand and I wait and i wait
or all I get is frowns
If he forgets anythng, even stumbles on his bed
It is always my fault
for interupting
not choosing silence instead
I wait-
part of his routine
he is an *******
looks very mean
why the **** am I waiting
whats worth waiting for
when all I do is stand here staring at the floor
waiting
Wake Up Johnny
I want to discuss so much!
We can forget about where we left off
Even though I was touched ****
Oh don't worry this is clean..HAR HAR
You know what I mean
Wake up ..what ever country your in
I can't remember my mind is full, I grin!
Wake up Johnny I need to talk!
I want your company
To hear your unexpected remarks
Your foolery is fun..where ever you are
Bring the SUN..wake him up
I have tales well spun!!!!
Wake up Johnny
My eyes are drawn to the road to my door
The path long, snow filled,
I keep looking for you,
Walking down the road coming home to me
Yet you do not even know where I live now
Yet I expect you non the less, come find me
I await you, you and nothing else
I took you to my favorite places so that you would know me.
What kind of prize is this at the end of the road?
You never took the time before to come with me
Until our story was ready to fold
So what kind of prize is this I am leaving you?
I do not know.
I will not be there if you go to find me
I will have a new home, and new places to roam
So what is it I have left you?
I hope that one day you will find peace within
I know you will feel lost and angrier than ever
Hopefully these places I have taken you will make you feel better
I could never bring you peace no matter what I said
That is part of the reason our relationship is dead
There is no going back, no remedy
But I wish you peace my love and in the end you will see
You could not grow or change with us still together
And with this change I hope you grow and feel again something..
Something besides anger
This anger of yours has made me run
There is no arguing with a black hole that is spun
There are no words that I have ever been able to say
To make anything better for you in any way
I am wasting my energy even trying
To stay any longer would to be a disgrace
We are not good for each other anymore
We must face it
It is the saddest thing ever you have to know
I cry endlessly and regret some of our choices
But you never connected, not even with our boy
That is more than I can handle that is why I left
But I still do not want to hurt you and that is why
I took you to my favorite places
So you have somewhere to go
When your feeling down and can't let go
Any feelings but anger and stress..I am so sorry
I love you
but your too big of a mess
I seek nothing less
I know what I need
I know what makes me flow- what makes me bleed
What I feed upon what makes me bleed..what makes... make s me bleed
I know upon what you feeI =l..I know..know I am what you feed upon I know I know
BUT I know what I need and I seek nothing less..though I seek relentlessltly
I seek none the less
When I panic and think I cannot do this
I think of my time with you
Care free and peaceful
And I turn around my friend
and know I can do this
You'rE an example the Universe sent
Sent to represent
what life can be
After I get through this
It is not complicated
It is very simple
It is also very hard
But simple
Uncomplicated
I can do this
There is an after THIS
A new life awaits if I just jump this one gate
It is not complicated
It is not easy
As you have said
You're here to help guide me through my process
I do the same for you
When I panic and think
This day is too hard
I am reminded of the peace of your yard ; )
All the peaceful pretty flowers
When I panic
You're my calm
And I know I can do this
Moth show me the way
Let me not stray from the path ahead
Thanks to you this butterfly is fed
; )
Thank you for the balance and reality checks
You really are such a blessing
The ONE worth my words, emotions and soul
Where is the one for me to behold?
Someone for me to be bold with
To share my true self with?
Where is HE?
The man with fresh conversations, new daily plans
The man who likes to make things with his hands
A man who likes to hear my poetry, feels my words
maybe even bring him to his knees
Where is THIS man for me?
Oh Those words that make me Quiver
We call them lovingly, Triggers
Words that bring us Alive
Senses joined, Amplified~
Simple words said to Me
Set the scene of Intimacy
Keys that unlock the Mystery

I set the locks, I make the Keys
I Change the Locks
You cannot trigger Me
So Whoah with YOUR tirggers
As they are Not the Right Key
My Box will remain Locked
A Mystery~
Why did I say hi?
The SLEEP OBSESSED
caught my eyes
Because I suffer insomnia
I thought what is his secret
I want to know
Hope he can sympathize
I am a stranger interrupting
Possibly that sleep he finds obsessive
perhaps he can't find it,
or does he spend his time sleeping peacefully
While I cannot find it
I had questions about his obsession
I admit that was what made me send the questions!
Shocked that I got answers
Though now I cannot remember what they were
How can that be it is all a blur
I cannot remember his obsession my first question
It is about the humor-this is my confession!
WI-Fi-ght
I didn't do a ******* thing'
Why you got to seethe and spit and ****?
Its just the **** internet
Can''t you click something else?
Really you have to toss the mouse?
Tell me *******
and That cable just hit the ******* mirror you ****...
That is mine in the property split you nit wit!
Gee the internet is back on was it worth all that??
Ya ******* baby!!
In awe and speechless
Embraced at first sight~
So many layers to explore
Each stair a flight~
Touched on so many levels
Windows seeing into souls~
And extraordinary adventure
Something new to behold~
Throwing off the shingles
Inspecting all the beams~
Smoothing all the wrinkles
Sealing all the seams~
Finding the foundation
Revealing the strength~
Learning the floor plan
Finding more than you think~
Unveiling unseen beauty
Totally unique structure~
Careful and detailed study
Finds this like no other~
Discovering what you feel
Appealing facets real and rare
And appreciate the simplicity
Of the complexity of design~
No other will compare~
Grace and elegance untold
Waiting for your eyes to behold
Essence pure and true~
So perfectly comfortable
As you dwell within me
I grow within you~



4/12/02
Copyright ©2002 Karen
I await you
Days away you are
Stops me not from diving stronger still in wanting
With will wishing and whispering to the trees and begging them please
to bring you back to me nature boy.
You walk away with a back full of gear
But I saw your tears..
It has only been hours but feels like years
Come back to me nature boy
You have days of travel on your feet
Trouble is everywhere in your path until next we meet
All I want is you safe at home, come home to me nature boy
Tonight you are out under the stars with so little
My bed very lush feels so empty and plain
It is so empty without you sharing it with me
Come home nature boy and sleep with me again
With WILL wishing and whispering to the trees around you...
keep you safe til you are back with me..
Come back to me nature boy
With you breathing is a song.
Full of laughter, giggles, wicked giggles
Long deep sighs full of tingles and surprise
running my nail up and down my thighs
Sensations that reach my breath and carry me away
Gasps for air while we create US
You watching my hips ******
Holding my breath as I sing a full body song with twitches
holding myself while I recover
Oh special notes that you uncover
Bringing the songs to peek
Your voice make my knees weak
I breath you in deep open my mouth
and let out a mini song of pants & whimpers
Feeling you swim within me ; )
Such wonderful positive energy.
My breath sings a song previously unknown to me
You say the words and watch my every breath
You see my heart beating in my chest
My smile, my face with 'the little death' ; )
The giggle after - not the final song
You know for you I breath funny all night long
Wicked girl laughter in your ears
between smacks on my *** I know you hear
Oh the sting is long-touching my breath
with an ever clever heat never leaving
I think about that and again
My breath changes again but nothing is wrong
These songs play all day and night long
My favorite sons
My every breath playing you' as it longs
for your touch, your voice,
again I sing, missing you with a different note string
heavy sigh as I am awake you sleep
I laugh as I love you all MY day long
Every breath full of love, smiles and sighs
a bit of burning between my thighs lives on
I touch my lips and you feel so near
Has nothing to do with what is smeared ; )
a place we spend where nothing is feared
I sing to you while you are sleeping
You do the same to me
Every breath part of a song ever present in me
Breathing with you makes everything right
To breath differently would be a fight
Everything is so natural, so light
Only thing heavy is my breathing when you are in sight
I feel so alive, so happy with you
I breath funny because of you ; )
With every breath I know it is true
I am in love with you
I open the box once again
hoping to express without a pen
the depths of things felt within
but the words don't come there is nothing to spin
I go to write over and over
I close the box, thinking-overboard don't go over
I have so much to say but want to show restraint
but the feelings I have bring out feelings I wish to paint
I want to express the way I feel
I sigh, deep truth and real
I open the box once again
wanting to just smile..somehow just smile and sigh
so that you know
I am enchanted by everything I share with you
No words needs but I can't help it..I want to say so much
I close the box once again thinking-just feel
he will know..he feels you strong and true
and because I feel that so strongly I want to open the box again and say
HEY I FEEL YOU
YEAH I FEEL YOU
but then I smile
close the box
smile and buzz with you ; )
Ripples of written words upon the page
I feel, I touch, I stroke each word.
     Warped paper feels like my skin.
Fingertips sensing everything
           Everything comes alive again
Feel the paper, ripples wild
                      Warped lines
Playful child
       Touch the paper, silly fingertip sin
Feel it touch it stroke it soft
   Touch every ripple and singing spot
             I touch I play and feel the words
I cannot get my mind off of you
    Even a piece of paper reminds me what I have done with you~
I guess that is one gain
Worry is not in this frame
What will be will be
But will the memories remain?
Then worry enters suddenly
Will I push them out to avoid pain?
Will I never remember what is was like again?
My voice was just starting to come alive
Self expression just took a horrible ******* dive
Oh did it? Hell no you *******!
Do not ******* worry
I will run away and live in my cocoon
But that self expression that began to bloom...
You took that away too soon
crunch
opps
directions say swallow
are you kidding me?
Cannot work fast enough
I have swallowed enough
****
paniced
I cannot wait
**** swallowing
I am dying here
crunch
anxiety attacks ; )
As MY husband you signed a sacred contract to give me your best
I got your worst..I *** the BLUNT of you
THE CURSE
The cure NOT I
I so sorry my my eyes cry
You contracted me your best and you gave me your worst
You did not care for my physical needs or my emotional bursts
You did not care for me the way I need
You now I emotionally bleed
all over the floor
right now tears..flood my floor wondering why I never got your best and someone else will..the best I contracted for..but you never delievered thru OUR door
I miss you **** it
and everything we never had
Tremble inside feeling so cold without you.
Sleep, rest illusive.  
My hurt on display for the world.  
It is so hard to breath without you.
You hexed my ***** and I cannot *** without you!
I miss your voice
You won't take my calls.
You blocked me on flickr viewbug and more.
I ******* adored you and you stupid man
Why the **** am I on ignore??
Oh You wanted to be the one to break my heart
The only one no but the most hurt.
The pissy thing is you never said a negative word
I miss your positivity, your loving words
I miss you more than ice cream, motor cycle season, life
I will take what you gave me and apply it every day.
You were the best in so many ways.
I long to hear your voice calling to me again.
I have done my best to forget, erase hear you no more to no end
Lay in bed calling out your name while my tears roll down my pillow
Your not to blame.
You made a choice to walk away, erase me
Make me pain.
My camera is very inspired so I cannot really complain.
The audience feels hollow compared to the smiles with you I came.
I miss the intimacy, the stares, the hot pants moans and **** glares.
I miss your instruction on just what to do
Dude you turned me into a pile of goo.
I would be ok if I could just ***
You hexed my *****
Im ******* ******...and I need to giggle
*** have you done?
Sigh, why..so sudden did I go from your everything
Your entire world
to your ignore list
I wish I understood
You make me cry
help me cry let us not be misunderstood
I get that it is good
You think its great
Everyone else thinks it is a bad thing
I think they are emotionally LAZY
Avoiding Life' STING
For six months I could not shed a tear
Not over anything
Now I cry whenever I think of what I fear
I let it out, sometimes shout
I am not running right now from my own frown
I know I must rain, free my soul
You poke at me playing a very important role
Just cause you make me cry does not mean I want you gone
on the contrary, you ring true
Call me on my **** Moth
You make me cry
With you that is safe to do
For that I thank you
*Butterfly
Glad we can share tears
Your view of me is of  a miserable person
One who has everything and is unhappy
Your view is one of an artist, and its ******!
Your painting of me is made just for you
When you paint me as miserable it feels happy to you
You want me unhappy because it is I who left YOU!
Just so that you know
You have painted me wrongly
Because I carry on happily and quite strongly!
So color me happy, color me cool
Color me the Karen You never took the time to know
Color me happy with the space and peace I need
You negativity is something I will not feed~
Your lips
I stare at a lot
Not because your talking
But because I'd like to be stalking them with mine
I still feel the sting of every string
on all my parts
my ankles still bare marks
I smile as my *** stings
A fond memory of so many things
whipped with pearls
til I whimpered
wanting you to take me just a little further
Ridges rolling  on pinched nips
With a slow soft touch upon my lips
Undulated hip
That wicked giggle you love so much
just around the next touch
I go silent a moment then I sigh
before you know it I am up for air
I look up and give you that stare
You know it is not over
Before this is done
You will whip my *** again
til the pearls come undone
; )
PPff editing I am not even out of bed yet
The way your lips move
The little twitches in your dimples
The sounds you make when you smile make me wake
I wanna stare at your face and watch you smile
Watching those lips all the while
Thinking what I'd like to do to them
That smile has me fixed
I find myself licking my lips
Wanting you to push me up against the wall
And take that kiss I have kept from all!
Your smile really makes me want to kiss you
It is a good feeling, enjoying so much
The want and wait for that touch
Your smile makes me want to kiss you
For now I sit and simply miss you
Recalling your smile
I close my eyes
and mentally kiss you
; )
"Hop on top of me"
"I would get no pleasure from that"
"Well it is a good thing my tongue is not cut off then"
**"If you tongue was cut off we would have so many less problems between us but I would also lose the only thing I enjoy about you"
I just emailed my ex
I hear his foot steps
over my head
turning on his pc
going to email
finding me
I wait it out
knowing it will bring out
anger
I wait for the shout
go ahead
actually let something out
If he had actually seen
the chat between
HIS child and me
it would increase his depth
only of misery
Such an inspiration
not only to me
YOUR son wants to be
anything but like thee
OUR son shares same life theory
YOU ****
so inspiring
as always
thanks for nothing
I do go through many phases
One of them was you
I look back on US now
Wondering what was I thinking?
That was not me!
Whoever I became with you was not me
That is why you were a phase you see
I tried your ways and found them fun
But none of them stuck like gum
Because you were just a phase I was going through
I look back now and I laugh
You were a trip and a half, a blast
* I shrug my shoulders
But you were not to my true taste
And so once again I phase
I GRIN*
And I remember all those phases that have come before
Yeah, somewhat a revolving door
SURE! Because I try new things
I like to explore
It is ok for me to say
You were just a phase I was going through

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