Alas, he gave it his all,

Yet nothing moved;

Nothing changed,

Nothing for the better

As it eats him whole;

As he sees those he care about

turn their heads away;

Something moved;

Something changed,

Something he never thought he would feel;

Left out,

Spaced out;

Their sympathies turned inside-out.

Awoken by the voices

That echo in his head;

He falls to the gravity of his thoughts

Nothing more than a temporal predicament;

A case of misfortune

That felt like a void awakening inside me;

So strange

Yet so familiar;

Nothing more than someone I knew

Trying to be a new person

I'm just talking to my own echo;

Too scared to tell the truth

Too tired to fight for myself

I guess no one could fix me;

As if this curse wasn't enough,

I fall down rock bottom

Yet I can still see all of you.

How your lights shine the brightest;

I envy.

How you can see the light of the stars,

And not the pitch-black darkness

Of the night sky,

I guess I am but an opposite;

You get lifted up,

I get pulled back down.

Drip, drip, dripping.

Such that of a broken faucet.

Twisted in all directions,

Hoping that the flow would stop.

Yet;

It lessens, but never ceases.

Time shall come,

When the faucet reaches its breaking point,

It'll all pour out.

Flooding;

Drowning;

*Drip, drip, dripping.

I'm tired of being passive,
I'm tired of being silent.
I tried,
Being someone I'm not;
I tried,
Being who I was,
Before everything shifted;
I found myself lost.

The monster hidden under my bed chose to lay beside me,

Wearing the face of a man I knew,

Revealing the truth of a sweet dream— a bitter nightmare;

Violated.

Dirtied.

Disgusted.

Unfa­thomable,

To be done by someone whom I'd thought can never do such things.

I will grieve,

I will falter;

But I will not let it eat me.

I shall be the rose both of the beauty and the danger;

I will stand and fight with the power I ought to have;

I will vanquish that very monster:

Without fear,

Without hesitation.

I vow to never let it consume me;

**I am a warrior and I shall forever be!

A little accident.

Dumb, not grave.

Small talks.

Turning into something more.

What to you was seemingly random,

To me was treasure.

You were there when no one else dared to stay.

Yet you never knew that.

Out of small talks,

I spilled truth.

I made myself a burden.

I made you worry,

I'm sorry.

I ponder if it was wrong for me;

Wrong to even speak to you so openly.

You said it was fine,

Even though I know I take much of your time;

Though I thank you;

Letting some of the bottled grief get out of me.

But we don't even talk anymore.

But even if we do;

*You don't have to lie anymore

I promised I'll forget,
How you make me feel;
I promised I'll shrug it off,
No matter how it bothered me.
I promised I'll bury the words that I wanted you to hear;
Promised.

Stuck between crossroads;
None I know would lead to where I want.
Denying what seems to be truth,
Lying to myself;
Hurting;
How bad of a liar I am.

Gave it even if I knew,
A losing bet;
A certain uncertainty;
Guilty innocence;
Out of words,
Loud silence.

Still staying,
Even if it's been long due.
I'll reminisce it in the words you once said,
Even if we never talk.
A lost cause,
*To a battle that hasn't even started.