I was blind
When I saw you

I was amazed
When I met you

I cried
When you left me

I cry
When I still want you

If things ended better
Maybe we could say hello.

I'm no good at love
As I search to be happy.
I became wonderful at lust
To find only sadness.

I searched for an answer
By only bleeding questions.

I wanted to hold on tighter
To only lose my grip.

I fell down into myself
Crying to be pulled out.

I'm trapped all alone
Wanting to be free with another.

Now I've lost all
Now I've gained nothing.

The love I desire
From your sweet passion
Shall one day tire.

You may try to forget me
As I try to avoid you,
But with you is where I want to be.

Not kissing in the halls
Not fighting on the phone
Not using your body

Simply sitting there
Looking up at the sky.

The deeper I bleed
The more at home I am

The more I feel
The less I become

Numbness

Simply feeling for the sake of existing
Is all I could ever know

Why do I even live?

I don't deserve my life,
Yet it's never been taken.

Perhaps it would be better if I said goodbye and bled myself dry

I wish to not love
Though love you I must.
My heart's dumb as a dove
For you alone I lust.

We had to say goodbye
Yet I yearn for your kiss.
Though I will never try
To love you like this
Never happened.
Because it did.

Oh flesh that was so sweet
Bring your lips that ours may meet
Lie to me and say you love me
Say I'm the one you want to see.
You went away and now I lack.
I see that now you won't come back