As a lightning strikes
down right at your bare feet
dripping
you await -
calm -
The thunder

A shadow of a shadow of a shadow casts
His long dark hat
across my feet
And floods the floor.

But with a wink I shoot
A ray of light along the ground
That creeps toward his shape and slams the door.

The darkness shrieks
And grows a little weaker;
and as it starts to part I feel
My nose does bleed
My hands do shake until -
Eager to run -
I lift a  shaking leg

Now suddenly the shadow moves;
It moves toward the curtain
Spreads  out ten thin long lines to reach the spot
But fails
And stumbles back

The two of us
Keep fighting for a while
I carry his grey marks under my skin

My shins are stripy black
He lost an eye.

Eventually the sun
Shows its bald head
And my friend starts to fade;

Smaller and smaller he becomes
And quiet
Then, with a simple single beat
He leaves;

No shady warrior
No riot

And he leaves me behind.

I had the strangest dream last night;
I dreamt of my whole family
and how, beneath the stars and in the peaceful dark-

they were all-

I can't say it!
It't so hard, I swear!

As I woke up the fright was so unbearable,
and what I saw so unimportant;

So now I hope, and hope, and hope
that, holding on to physical reality, it breaks not.

It takes not on a shape as in my dream.

You see?

{...}
Fire almost burned away
sizzling
every stench by now every quivering unauthentic vow of love
every trick played on you
for the sake of
surviving

But you'll come out soon
and you'll reek
of smoke and you will choke a bit
on your own courage
But Baby, it'll nourish this
entire world

Nobody fake it you
will make it through the flames

My doctor goes
crazy about
my thyroid
flutt'ring
here and there not
giving
any
steady
values to be
accurately measured
I soothed her today
saying
thinking
It's just
Life calibrating
my body balancing
itself
It's just the
Butterfly Effect
She says ok but
please
get yourself another
appointent
I smile we
both know
It's just my body
calibrating itself
It's just
Life
calibrating -

Clench clench clench
Kid
I begin to feel again
It is
An empty fear

It feels like
the middle of the day and yet
you are
tired
It feels like a river that does not flow

I hold a blue dried rose
up in my hand so that
a ray of sunlight finds its way
through petals

and there - like melting metal I can feel
how - finally - the
big
hard
stone
that so long blocked my throat
melts, too.

I am a file to waste your time
I have no style
I do not rhyme

I am a poem that makes no sense
I do not know the future tense
nor do I care about it

I am a piece of golden ****
that clings to you like sticky paper
to be remembered later when -
in moments of appropriate silence -
you are the one to burst out laughing
and throwing up your hands with violence

When asked to please explain yourself you smile
cover your eyes to disappear
and see that this -

though silly it may be -

has changed your life.

Run -
I will have to run for a while
and not think of all the things
at once.

I see you and I write this
To acknowledge
And appreciate your love and pain
And I will do everything
To heal you 🌀♥️

I had popcorn with my
Flatmates and we
Kept singing to the
Old songs we all
Knew.

We drank the wine I
Got at the festival and -

Hell, did it feel good to be
At home.

A little fox,
two mice,
a white cat,
a chick
and a tiny bat

accompany
our way

and even if we stray
again

they'll find us

and- with paws and fur and tiny noses-

redirect

our clumsy
human feet.

The untanned soles of your
naked feet the most
vulnerable part yet facing
my palm now
I'll slowly embrace
the crocodile woman

Let your hands not
Cling to the frozen beds
Of purple flowers

Let them crash the icy surface and relief
Your skin

So that our future has
No chance to pass
Unnoticed

Once you do love
your whole self
unconditionally
because you have set out to discover this
you'll
find
everyone who really
truly loves you
in your own heart
love does not know
seperation

A sick feeling
reaches up
and crawls out of my throat
its feet still dangling in the middle of me

Pull it out I cant
for it is still tied to my skin

Forget about it
does not work either
for I do feel it with every step.

All foot prints
carry
light

all floors are
steady

If you find them

A spark glows brighter
if you let it

a pair of purple eyes shines
intimidating
through your layers of night -
a wish you remember
which just does not leave you alone

At the edge of your perception borders
the image of
a fuzzy silhouette a figure
zigzagging through
tundra snow
in quiet speed -
a mental movement
reaches you
covered in still ice crystals -
a reminder
of just how far
feels close to you

'What if he's stuck
and no great help is kicking in
to help him?"

Is this your mind
annoying you again?
Is this your artificial voice
blocking your sight?

I might just get a little furious right now;
I tried and tried so hard to teach you
that-
if there is a truth-
that it will reach you

Your ears be closed
or not.

Silky leather pants
between my hands

a moving thigh
touches my eye

breathe, love
breathe

Beneath the clouds
under the sun
we hit it
we come until the sweat runs through our clothes

After a while
we lie next to each other
on mother earth's grassy green

And hot steam rises
from my chest and his
and fists are opening

and closing now around my wrists.

On and on this goes
until the moon comes out
and kisses with its pale fire
our whitened skin

And we begin again.

Tugging tirelessly
at your sleeve tapping
on your shoulder knee
heart
the beat that keeps
repeating
grow
through it grow
break
the limitation

Nothing comes naturally
anymore nothing
flows through you and makes you
forget time
everyone tells you It's coming back
It' coming
back but you just wonder
when and how

I took the headphones off
for you, my dear

He says
and gasps
when he now sees me fighting

Put down your arms
I cannot tell you more
how much I love you

You put down your guard
I say
how do you want me that I pray
for you?

I have no guard
just bandages
he says
and pray you only do in church

To me you just exist
because you do

no need for words, for song, for chemicals
be brave enough to be

just you.

Amidst it all the girl
slips her small hand into
the lion's mouth
between
his teeth
and has the head
calm down

Brave love
Does not creep around corners

Brave love looks fear
In its ugly face

Brave lovers
Do not turn around

They walk on
Alongside every
Imagined boundary.