You fell in love with me.

I just hope you jumped.
Not slipped.

How do I fall asleep without you next to me?
How do I know that when the nightmares come I wont be swallowed whole.
And when the terror,
The shakes
And the self important universe descend upon my head that I can find safety in the hollow of your neck and the crook of your elbow.

you wish me to be
free from my demons
and calm like the sea
how angered I am
that you can't see
I'm lost in the ocean
with nothing but monsters inside of me ;
      and I wish you would realize
      awareness is key.